Kistaro Windrider @Kistaro@awoo.space

What to do about it now that it is not 15 years ago, I am not the me of 15 years ago, and work is not college, is less clear.

I wonder how different my life and emotional issues would be if I joined mainstream gay culture in college 15 years ago. I am realizing now that even with my gender issues I could be approximately content as a flamingly gay man because being perceived as something not conformant with performative heterosexuality is most of what I need.

Not all of it; my gender still isn’t something binary. But if I’m going to perform something consistent day-to-day, I think there are worse choices.

In which I calculate my taxes in terms of the United States military budget and conclude “three seconds”

I have spent the last four business days determining that I need to write maybe thirty lines of code for the feature I’m trying to add

On the flip side, four days ago I thought it would involve several hundred, so I guess I have been successfully writing negative one hundred lines of theoretical code per day for the last few days

The office smells like armpits today

It turns out that I’m afraid of changing my wardrobe and presentation away from “generic Midwest college slacker” because I’m afraid of coming off as fake and this is all I know

“Effeminate, flamingly gay” would be an upgrade, I have no idea where to start, and I’m terrified of coming off as parodic or appropriative or “fake”. And the fact that I’d rather present myself this way feeds into my anxiety about not being “trans enough”.

English is a language where everything is a euphemism when paired with “moist” and/or “throbbing”

It’s definitely spring! I now get woken up at 5:30 AM and have trouble getting back to sleep because of a very enthusiastic robin right outside my window a couple of feet away from my head. 🐦🔊

Google Translate is a spectacular tool. It doesn’t always work, but its failures are glorious. https://groups.google.com/forum/m/#!topic/shibboleth-users/EjvS2Cgio6c

Meanwhile, in Hearthstone, my deck literally named “Bad Murloc” is now on a winning streak in Ranked

(...at rank 25, I just started)

It turns out that most of what I have learned about Hearthstone by building a barely not terrible deck is not applicable to the pursuit of building a good deck

As a developer on the automatic update platform for a widely-used web browser:

Securing a widely-used software package that connects to arbitrary servers is hard. Not just that eventually every last one of our bugs will be exercised by some web site somewhere, but we’re an obvious high-value target for separately-installed malware.

We have to write a web browser that is itself resilient to malware attacks. If users can shut off automatic updates or malware defense, malware can shut it off...

Modern medical science has given us the ability to cure an incredible range of diseases, syndromes, and disorders in laboratory mice