Kistaro Windrider @Kistaro@awoo.space

Studying chess makes me feel cognitively healthier in every way, with the possible exception of my sleep schedule. I don’t know if I have cause and effect reversed - maybe I can only do it when I’m feeling okay - but I feel like it builds the habit of stopping and thinking when I feel confused or overwhelmed, a position chess puts me in frequently. Calculating approaches to a complex position is good memory training, as well as teaching me that I am not powerless whenever things look difficult.

Got bored with Hearthstone podcasts, went back to talk shows targeted at lawyers

I am a nerd

I wish it was easier to just ignore my pervasive sense of personal inadequacy and go about daily life

The only major reason I regret never learning to drive is that I want to take a vacation to go on a road trip to a national park halfway up a mountain or something. Somewhere green, cool, and isolated. I can’t go anywhere quiet in America without a driver.

Trying to solve NY Times crossword puzzles well above my skill level with help from Google, and discovering autocomplete showing me the many ways other people tried to do exactly the same.

(The support group, my mother’s role in it, the relation of this person to my mother, and this person being a doctor are all things that actually happened, not just elements of a dream, for the curious.)

I dreamed I got sick on a vacation, so I went to a doctor who happened to be one of my mother’s friends from when she was President of a support group for an uncommon chronic illness, who diagnosed it as a viral infection. Her opinion was that people got better much faster if a doctor prescribes anything unusual because of the placebo effect, and thus I was prescribed a daily course of cheeseburger-flavored ice cream.

It’s hard to remember just how important regular exercise, even mild exercise, is to me. I’ve had a few lazy days and thus a few consecutive days of terrible mood; I’m now feeling a lot better because I went out of my way to walk somewhere to get dinner, rather than just using what I had at home, because it got me up and moving.

Watching crows be noisy is fascinating. You can just see the effort it takes for a bird to squeeze a loud noise out of itself

C++17 solves the biggest major problem with computer programming languages today, which as everyone knows is “they make too much damn sense”

Today is a “shimmery prismatic Eastern snakey dragon” kind of day for me apparently

I invented a programming language specific to endurance scenarios involving pastries filled with sugared fruit

It’s called Pie-thon

It is okay for me to feel better when I have been feeling bad, even when problems have not solved themselves and people around me are still having a hard time. This is usually hard for me to remember but I am doing better with it lately.

you could call it “the rushing sound of a man-made waterfall”, or you could call it “the howling of the dammed”

My emotional health problems hurt people close to me and I don't know how to make them just not be a problem