uspol-adjacent, mh, history, pondering
I wonder how many of my differences with other leftists come down to the fact that so many of you have _never_ been a conservative in your life and have never even had a single conservative friend.
I came from the other side.
I had a lot of help, since my mom was pretty much a hippie, but ideologically speaking she raised me very laissez-faire and when I become a pseudo-fundie at 11 all she really had in the way of resistance was a rather sororal "No... seriously?! You believe this shit?" over coffee in our kitchen at 3 am.
But I got myself into conservative beliefs for some very well-meaning reasons, and I can still model that world. I'm also _agonizingly_ aware of what a tremendous intellectual house of cards it is, which is paradoxically why I'm so harsh about holding leftists to high standards of intellectual integrity.
It's because I basically have nowhere left to go politically, and I'll be damned if I'll see the same memetic-zombie scenario I saw on their side happen on ours. No, being the Good Guys isn't enough to protect you. You're a human being. It's in your fucking neurological code, and if you don't fight it constantly, it happens. Look at all the things I'VE fucked up, and I sweat this stuff every moment of my life. >__<
re: uspol-adjacent, mh, history, pondering
@zebratron2084 Mixed feelings here. I'm a hick from Georgia; I got indoctrinated with some absolutely horrific stuff, and it nearly killed me.
So I think of conservatives as enemy partly because I've seen what they do to people, kids included, but also, I have a certain amount of empathy because there are *good* people there, too, and they're being used, and they're being trashed out by this horrible dogma which mostly is there to benefit rich assholes, not white southerners.
And I know leftists aren't saintly either. I do think part of the way we go after each other so readily is that the enemy has all the resources and it looks like nothing will stop them from getting their way, *especially* not the Democrats. I think we go after each other because it's appealing when there's no way we can win.
It's as though we're shoving and pushing at each other down here in the tube station, because there's nothing we can do about the Luftwaffe's bombs steadily flattening London over our heads.