CW: MH (-,-,-)
Been trying to word this safely for a while. Haven't had much success.
I struggle with feeling ignored and unwanted sometimes. A lot of times. Most of the times.
I feel like I have to put in a lot of effort and expend a lot of energy to be included. Or even remembered. And I definitely rarely feel wanted enough to not have to initiate. Making first moves is hard for me, and I don't feel very good at it, so I don't do it very often, so I don't have to feel disappointment or hurt or anxiety from failure and rejection.
Which makes the few times I do try and end up with nothing feel even worse somehow.
I don't even get left on "read". I'm stuck on unread and feel very ghosted.
This just my feelings. This is not a fair or compassionate assessment. I just needed to say some stuff out loud.
CW: MH (-,-,-)
@kelseyhusky I think the world of you, but I also realize half the time you’re hunkered down in my room, you’re hunkered down in mine. Should I be checking in on you more or asking you to hike with me and stuff, more often?
re: CW: MH (-,-,-)
@Leucrotta I might not be up for hiking, but I'd totally be down for hanging out!