personal (~~~~~)
I just wrote the most difficult letter of my life. It's got a very small chance of the biggest payoff of my life, though.
And, probably, because I always seem to fuck these things up despite the best intentions, a rather larger change of totally wrecking a whole bunch of stuff for me, Peg, and some people I would really do just about anything for a clean slate with.
If you're guessing, you're probably guessing right, and yeah, you can imagine how scared and anxious I am. Physically, I feel like nothing but a blur. Wish me luck. There's a tiny, tiny hope that friendship, if not magic, is at least _something_.
re: personal (~~~~~)
@zebratron2084 *hugs* It's okay. It'll even out soon.