To come out or not? That is the question.

Why does family have to be so complicated? I want to live my truth and be me, but fuck if I know how anyone other than my chosen circle will react.

I came from a very black, very religious family. I have two uncles who are pastors, my father was/is a deacon. My grandfather was a trustee (handled the money) for a congregation that topped out 2k on a crowded Sunday my whole life.

Uncle Michael actually pulled me aside to give me a talking to around 12 years ago, expressing his displeasure at me having @mawr go with me to my grandmother's (his mother's) funeral. I didn't have a good response, and I haven't really talked to him since.

I think my mom would actually be okay. She's had to deal with lots of issues being a teacher and administrator in public schools, so she's got experience dealing with heavy, personal, makes-you-vulnerable shit.

I wrote up a letter any everything. Haven't sent it yet. Still don't feel comfortable with a bunch of stuff.

I think I'm going to. Its just a matter of when.