@zebratron2084 answer; I’m not actually that nice. If I can remember to feel warmth and affection towards people while anxious, I feel that and I feel a little more connected to the rest of the world, so that helps calm me down a little. Selfish as well as selfless. (I figured this out by accident while trying to knock myself out with pot, so this is relatively new and I’m still not practiced at it.)
Besides, I don’t think “nice” includes the amount of grinding anger I feel on a regular basis.
@zebratron2084 hey thanks!
@Leucrotta Oh, thank goodness, actually, I was afraid it was just me. You're still totally rad. <3