Okay so this week, in addition to morning and afternoon standup meetings; we had a 30 minute check in Tuesday with agency contact (for which my boss hugely monopolized conversation), Wednesday we had an hour long "sprint review" which was mandatory cheerleading followed by a 30 minute long post-mortem meeting after a larger meeting which felt very self congradulatory, Thursday (today) we had a very self congradulatory meeting after my boss' 45 minute presentation which we were required to attend, tomorrow is an (unpaid, mandatory) hour long team lunch and a 30 minute monthly one-on-one meeting with my boss and I do NOT know what I'm going to say.

I make what's the nicer end of pay rate for annotation, probably because of local cost of living, but I really bristle at the amount of emotional labor I am doing at no extra cost - not just so my boss gets his nice happy office fantasy where everyone's delighted to be there and working with him and the less likable people stay in the background and don't ever complain, but also the sheer volume of (not always successful) effort I put into defusing my reaction to stuff which hits me square in the issues.

@Motodrachen he wants reality to be what he'd like, and will apply pressure to *make* reality conform to those wishes. This is one of the ways he reminds me of my parents, while other stuff is very much high school. I'm unsure whether the favoritism is some sort of intentional lure to string the unwanted kids along, or unintentional reality-is-what-I-want. I don't think he's one of those narcs where reality changes every few minutes to make sure he's always awesome, this is some different maybe even neurotypical variety of fucked up.

I know I'm going to lose the job, it's just a matter of how and when.