Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

the songs I've been playing over and over again lately are a Yiddish folk song about how childhood's forever over and gone, and a folk rock song about a miner dying in an accident before his wedding. Dunno what that says about my emotional health.

the popular misunderstanding that The Offspring wrote a song about trying to find bras that fit, based on the lyrics “you gotta lift and separate ‘em”

Ever since V I’ve had this idea for Indiana Jones VI. It’s now 1980 and a profoundly old Indy is the consultant for this movie Spielberg is making about him in 1936. He keeps grousing about how it didn’t happen that way while Marion tries to get him to take his blood pressure meds. And then something happens. I’m tempted to say a murder, or the Tunisia set winds up hitting actually significant Carthaginian ruins or w/e, but our hero must put on hat and leather jacket yet ANOTHER one last time.

@obscurestar it’s just weird how people who don’t really profit that much will write horrible stuff defending the horrible behavior. It’s like if I wrote about how the DoD needs it’s incredibly bloated budget; outside of at best fairly indirectly, what do I get out of the deal?

And then with a stirring flash of brass music the movie version of Midway ended! Japan was defeated forever, and the next years of brutal island hopping and a horrifying bombing campaign were basically an afterthought.

Fuck it. ask me anything. If I get too uncomfortable I’ll just ask permission to answer via email or Telegram or something.

do NOT jump on the desk and yell “Run out the guns, Mr. Bellamy, and give them a whiff of grape shot!” even if the office is empty and I am listening to the “Cutthroat Island” soundtrack again. (Couldn’t actually listen to the Hook soundtrack without thinking about how we lost Rob, so I swapped out for a different pirate movie. Tbh I liked Cutthroat more than the PotC movies.)

Jaws also gets stupidly personal with me. It was on TV a LOT when I was a teenager, and the nerd character is not just the bravest of the three men, but also physically competent (something school was continually telling me I couldn’t be, and my family was telling me didn’t matter; this gets into how I’m actually kind of a jock and this was completely unacknowledged in my childhood).

I mean, who puts a really bright brass piece… about stereotypical tourists showing up in Cape Cod… and it’s part of a horror movie, which also is a retelling of Moby Dick? Jaws doesn’t get credit for being this brilliant.

ADHD theater: wanted to listen to the Raiders of the Lost Ark soundtrack, wait actually naw I want to listen to Jaws ‘cause it’s about the beach and the ocean, no wait that reminds me of “Eggman,” let’s play that.

@chimerror right; when the good old days WERE actually better in ways that weren’t just rosy colored teen twenty something filter, how do I look backwards and forwards and acknowledge the good and ill in both, fairly?

@chimerror sorta tangential addendum here. Obviously now that I’m legitimately OLD, I’m working on figuring out how to live my remaining years still curious, joyous, and kind. That’s something everyone faces; it’s harder coming from my upbringing; but it’s profoundly difficult with a greater society telling me we’re all disposable sharecroppers with no future…because the GOOD people are doing well and everything’s just great. If that makes sense?

@chimerror and that’s the thing in this system. You’re either a money making opportunity or you’re an inconvenience; to be an ordinary consumer is to be that close to how the homeless and disabled are treated. And I hate how we’re basically living through 1935 and treating it like it’s 1995. It’s bad on it’s own, but given my age it conjures up bitter memories of the Reagan era when everything was officially wonderful.

It's never been this easy to be a radical leftist. When I was a kid, you had to protest an imperialistic war, be openly Queer in an obviously homophobic society, etc etc. These days wanting to survive in the high standard of living we enjoyed 8 years ago makes you an extremist.

Somehow the little firefox pocket thing showing me that really sadistic article about restarting loans, near an article about how great it is to take sleeper cars, really set off all the bitterness about how I want to travel and learn languages and martial arts, and go to cons and restart hobbies, but it's my glorious destiny to make money for my landlords in what's obviously an elistist society.

And I'd been doing pretty okay about all the emotional stuff involving regrets and fear for a while. Idk.

"how relaunching student loans could restart the economy" holy shit, how fucking callous and cruel can you possibly get, it's like saying how much sweeping homeless encampments or lack of rent control is vital to keep the economy going.

I think I need to be okay with bigger sharp edges and contrasts in coloring when I get back into coloring.

Also apparently, I really want [kink] which isn't about to happen.

Usually I'm too kicked in from winter to notice it's suddenly spring, and in this case, because that chunk of this difficult year was unusually difficult, so it's kinda nice being all happy about fall *and* getting to see at least one Aussie stoked about it being spring.

with a fremen suit in good condition life can be sustained for up to two weeks even in the line for the DMV off Lawrence and Homestead

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