Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

of course that prior post fits into the overall self doubt of "what if, despite a universe which DOESN'T intentionally work in the highly moralistic condemning way I was always told, naw, I really AM just a stupid, ugly, vicious asshole?"

oh how COOL!

oh yeah it's my favorite Ink Spots song, "Maybe I Didn't Care If We Meet Again On Fire"

you know, the one where there's the spoken bit in the middle of the chorus singing

That was a harrowing phone conversation. I think between that and how I didn't actually grab drawing time before launching into job hunt today, I'll wrap it up soon.

I wish I didn't know the things I know so well.
I try to change, but it's what I am.
It makes me sick to be so mean
from what I've been, and what I've seen,
from top to bottom I am obscene!
it stands in my place
it spits in my face
it's shame, shame!

here comes that awful feeling again!
welcome the ugly animal!
I hold my breath to watch you swing
my high rope acrobat ball and chain
I'm not afraid
I messed it messed it messed it messed it up!
I've got my telescope head in the haystack
I'm getting TIRED of your dodgeball circus act
put pepper in my coffee
I forgot to bark on command

"Jodorowsky's Dune" is basically the documentary equivalent of Mel Brooks' "Silent Movie."

get Febreeze car! Now your car can have that Airing Out My Fursuit Smell! You'll feel like you're in the con hotel room even while you're stuck in traffic!

ALL THE ROOTS HANG DOWN
SWING FROM TOWN TO TOWN
THEY ARE MARCHING AROUND
RIGHT UNDER YOUR BOOTS!
ALL THE TRUCKS UNLOAD
BEYOND THE GOPHER HOLES
THERE'S A WORLD GOING ON UNDERGROUND!

The usual crankiness about jobs. The usual crankiness about fucking Amica ads; look, I already know you're insurers, and therefore have slightly less empathy than a lamprey, fuck off.

Really wish I had a cigarette.

Kind of want to start tomorrow by drawing, before launching into the job hunt. See if that feels better.

@Kusimanse Now what I really wonder is whether there's a gestalt of "stuff that makes potential furries and just people in media think about producing quasi-furry content, such that the potential fan is thinking about this stuff ANYWAY and then gets hit by quasi-furry media and goes, oh hey yeah I like this.

Whoo hoo! I have been inspired enough to plot out a short Dark Sun campaign, but then of course; it’s 2024, would players be interested in Dark Sun, which rules system would I run and where would I get time and motivation to run?

A take on a meme with D&D settings. The Virgin Forgotten Realms Adventurer (personally met Elminster once, +3 everything, Harper, feasts on finest whatever) vs The Chad Athasian (former anonymous quarry slave who lives in fantasy Fresno, owns a +1 scapula and ate the last of her friend 3 days ago).

Welcome to ATHAS, the D&D setting with the mightiest HATS! World of three seasons (summer, ultra-summer, and whoa-rain-makes-arroyos-impassible-but-it’s-still-summer) where it’s been Thursday for the last several centuries! A world where any item a player character might want is spelled with at least one extra k and an apostrophe!

Fish and chips at Spud, a used 4e book, a text based MU* earlier today. If the CD deck in my car still worked I’d use that, too. I am old and things I love belong to a world increasingly lost in the past.

seriously thinking of expressing tmi

@Kusimanse And Spirit, then if you go further the Americanized Godzilla/cartoon and Jurassic Park's dinosaurs. The 90s really had a lot of animal characters beyond just obvious cartoons.

Why this is I'm not sure, but I think someone smarter than me could probably relate imagery *within* furry fandom to mainstream animal imagery to the larger sense of what's going on (in the 90s "our planet is dying" is a big revelation, in 2024, "our planet is dying" is pretty accepted "common sense").

@frost I feel like festivals, costumes and art are part of the innate nature of humans. Part of what defines humans as *animals*, so it makes sense that theater and fiction would wind up gravitating to animal imagery.

So the role-playing as animals makes sense to me. If you're going to talk about stuff as a spectrum, where one end is a Victorian completely humanocentric view of the universe and the other end are say therians, furry's definitely somewhere on that spectrum.

I slept for over 8.5 hours, waking up to use the bathroom exactly once, and I feel emotionally low and physically not great.