Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Weird wanting to make something really COOL but feeling completely incapable of making compelling porn, or anything that doesn’t look shitty and amateurish.

I don't know why I'm so torn up inside my mind
the darkness, it swallows me whole.

It makes me sick to be so mean
from what I've been, and what I've seen!
From top to bottom I am obscene!

It stands in my place!
It spits in my face!
It's shame, shame!
It's shame!

#drawings today largely inspired by Yoshida Brothers and Sato Masaru.

@electrickeet thanks - will tell you more later

honestly I should delete my account here

honestly I should delete myself, actually

neither of these is likely to happen. Oh well.

my 1200 phone screen never called, so of course I called the company, found out they were in a meeting, left message (with someone with a very heavy accent - surely the entire company isn't entirely Romanians?) and will keep the phone line open for a bit

I wish I had a fursuit! I wish I had a future! I wish I were a cute girl! I wish I belonged to a more accepted minority group! I wish I had enough money to take the Coast Starlight as part of a vacation! I wish I'd used the last of the potatoes in these mashed potatoes!

okay so is it;

Skeletor is Taskmaster but at Pride

or is it;

Taskmaster is Skeletor cosplaying as Cable

https://youtu.be/ur9V0W8G3NA?si=TZzV8QWbnmJx_2RN

*scratches furiously behind ear*

it's a real pity the Wachowski Sisters never used the Yoshida Brothers for the soundtrack to any of the Matrix movies

okay, I've given up trying to go off on leavened bread - this wasn't going to last but I was hoping to make it to the weekend. holy shit this is a REALLY GOOD CROISSANT.

@ziphi an isopod-sona would be really cute! I've been vaguely thinking about what might be good as a different fursona, lately.

a little early for 426 Day but; remembering the first time I saw Alien and Aliens in this really NICE theater room on the other side of East Quad

except to get back to my dorm room I had to go through the basement which was this maze of narrow corridors with exposed pipes and old washing machines. Years later they apparently made the place look less like where you could get pulled into the ceiling by a hungry xenomorph, but I definitely was ready to PUNCH something all the way back to my room.

Wolverine! Grew up in the wilds of CANADA fighting deadly Canada geese and vicious Timbits before the EVIL GOVERNMENT took his memories and made him even more indestructible! Marvel's biggest badass, it's not like other X-Men grew up in a concentration camp or anything like that!

* finishes watching drawing video at 1.5x speed*

* clicks on "Johnnie Cope" for morale and gets incredibly weaponized bagpipes *

misophonia is when you have an irrational strong hate for soybean paste

I'm at this weird point where I can intellectually accept that who and what I am is actually okay, but I still don't believe it emotionally.