Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

lately I've been spotting the connections between my ADHD as a chemical physiological thing and my conscious emotional take on the world.

part of this is my resentment for people officially better than me - I grew up around a lot of double standards, elitism, prejudice, and favoritism. I notice that not only are "good people" a potential threat but the way they're able to get away with things where I can't breaks my reality (you said there were rules that applied, so I was trying to live with those rules as a way of keeping my emotions in line, but clearly the rules DON'T apply if it's someone you like) and sets off wider despair (since rules are completely arbitrary, there's no reason things will ever be fair, and I can continue being hurt forever).

and of course everything about this Administration and its apologists is very much "well if the people WE LIKE do it, it's okay." Constantly triggery.

Just one #drawing today

they always say dress for the job you want not the job you have so I don't understand why people don't wear leather jackets, bullwhips and fedoras all the time

in fact I don't remember the last time I saw anyone wearing that combination

Making a new Bluesky account leads me right into how living in 2025 means we're all pretty pissed off about politics, and trying to mute or block my way to greater comfort (hearing the equivalent of "it's metastasized! It's metastasized to your bones!" fails to really do much for me, ya know?), it's just not going to work (among other reasons I think Bluesky's muting words doesn't work). I am stuck somehow relying on my ability to step past negative feelings and I'm not good at that.

#drawing earlier tonight

A magical hat of disguise, it can appear as any hat you wish from a simple flat cap to an elaborate confectionery of lace, felt and carved statuettes.

@LexYeen You're just trying to get your ctenophorsona into a pool toy picture, aren't you?

Space Marine *anything* being -tors inspired a loose, puerile cartoon. CW for poop joke.

"I kitbashed these Space Marine Excavators by drilling out the hands to add these Tamiya shovels."

I got a translation of "Das Boot" at a library book sale. I largely missed the anti-war part (and the part where they were in a war) in reading it as this HEROIC MEN AGAINST THE SEA epic. Arr.

Anyway, 'cause you can't print some things in Germany, parts were edited to read them yelling Heil UF (pretty much when leaving harbor), and naturally I assumed whatever UF was, heiling it was some sort of German way of letting people know that you'd cleared moorings.

D&D character idea; now that they’ve gotten rid of half elves/half orcs. Character has orc blood, but simply genetic luck means she’s not just human-passing; she’s actively slender with delicately pointed ears. She obstinately refuses to claim she is anything BUT an orc, there’s no reason why her familial pride has to come second to anyone’s bigotry.

Ever wonder whether northwest coast art, with its broad dramatic colored shapes, is partly intended to read clearly in the mist and rain of PNW winters? (Okay probably more important that it’s an easy style to crave with the wood grains and tools available before European or Chinese contact.)

@ziphi “it’s an anime” doesn’t by itself preclude being about gender

And looking at the preview for what I’m pretty sure was an AI generated animal video on Instagram, I’m struck by how ecologically unsound it is not just to use up a crap ton of water on this shit, but also to have a public no longer sure animals and landscapes are irreplaceable with convenient glurge.

@Tuftears you’re not going to believe this, but one of the things Mt. Hiei monks were notorious for were marching into Kyoto with portable shrines (and weapons) to demand concessions from local authorities- including tax breaks for breweries they owned. The idea being, you can’t get them to leave without caving or violence and what sort of nimrod attacks monks?

well I got suspended from Bluesky for three days, and appealed it as per below;

My email states that I "posted content that violates our Community Guidelines related to Respectful Discourse," but I have no idea what that could be. I haven't THREATENED anyone, and the closest thing I can think of is mentioning having suicidal thoughts then bypassing them, so I ask that you please either re-enstate my account or tell me what I supposedly did wrong.