Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Believe me I wish I were a good enough artist that I could walk away from jobs that pay okay for making me feel worthless and disposable. Sadly the time for that to matter was 15 years ago and now would be impossible if I *were* that good.

@topaz if I truly had control of my life and did not need money I would have walked earlier today.

@topaz she can treat me like a valued employee or she can find a new employee. I am tired of adults thinking they can make me the antichrist in whatever fucked up reality conveniences them. Believe me there are things I’ve really fucked up and exactly one item is stuff I am catching shit for.

@topaz I do not care. They keep texting me outside work hours and this was something I was willing to put up with from an employer who hadn’t apparently decided I was a terrible person. Why should I permit it?

@topaz they will. This was response to an email that I am not to open mail because apparently I am doing it wrong and I need to stay on top of my assigned tasks.

Responded to my boss’ text with “please don’t text me outside work hours.”

Отвали. Идти на хуй.

Nobody else here again. So I can play the Goodnight Texas cover of Of Wolf and Man and cry if I need to. Seriously the reason I’m this way is one catastrophe worth yelling at me after another, or being on alert for them to yell at me again, with no escape or privacy or downtime that couldn’t get interrupted at a moment’s notice, for years. Not that super picky coworker is a great time either.

Yelling at me puts me into this mood somewhere between “I want to curl up in a pile of stuffed animals and be told that I am good and loved and safe” and “I want to cut my wrists into the sink.” Walking outside as lunch. Will call temp agencies tomorrow.

@Chip_Unicorn also this was communicated in the form of her losing it at me and I really don’t react well to angry adults yelling and blaming me and not letting me get a word in. So fuck that it’s 30 minutes? Later and I just did a different task and frankly I just want to go home and have an edible

I’m not working for a property management company again though. You work for evil people and inevitably they’ll have no qualms about hurting you. Unfortunately most companies are somewhere between “evil” and “Erhardt Milch called and he thinks you’re taking it a bit far.”

@Chip_Unicorn this is two days after learning we might lose jobs. Maybe she’s looking for an excuse?

Oh for fuck’s sake you’re threatening to fire me because 1) I looked through some files to find LV insurance info and you were not around to tell me where that was and 2) I opened a rent file to check that a tenant had paid rent while coworker was on vacation in NYC? Fuck you. My day just went from “gonna tough it out, head home, draw” to utter shit.

@Ylfingr I was hoping the (not great) joke would maybe help

Subtoot

“Soul vore” is when a furry eats another furry with collards and maybe sweet potato pie

@Thaminga üüüüüüuuuuuuh

Lady being around you is like slamming espressos while watching a documentary about Chernobyl. Could you please either step off or comp me a bill from the dispensary?

I think of this a lot as regards Covid, xmass shootings, inflation etc. Someone has decided that we’ll just get used to it.

Towards the end of Covid being an official emergency (whether it still is or not) I read this article suggesting that Japan didn’t surrender due to the atomic bombs, but that they were worried about a Soviet land grab and the bombs offered a diplomatic out. Part of what the authors cited was; Japan’s leaders considered Hiroshima a further escalation in the bombing campaign, losses were high and getting higher - but Japanese citizens would learn to accept that loss.

Whether I’m actually ADHD or not is uncertain since I definitely have CPTSD and that can look close. But today I realized something that makes ADHD more likely; I’ve been thinking of what I like in TTRPGs lately and part of why I really like monster manuals and modules is, text is broken into smaller pieces by pictures and stat blocks.