Feeling that I am good enough turns out to be a *technical skill*, like cooking or driving, and growing up being *actively told* I’m stupid, inept, ugly, unathletic and evil means when stressed I doubt myself and tend to look externally for reassurance which won’t necessarily come (or which cognitive distortion dismisses) in part *because* of old training that if I can only be good enough I’ll be safe and comfortable, which looms large because PTSD means I suck at thinking there’s a long term.
@Chip_Unicorn it’s like slamming your head repeatedly into a wall except if you slam your head repeatedly into a wall you can feel the effect
Day job’s coming to a close tomorrow. Which okay salmon season’s over and it was always a temp deal but still, I was sort of hoping, you know? Gonna see if I can get a reference out of the deal, gonna see if I can get food stamps maybe, gonna try not to [redacted] myself out of fear of homelessness or working at an Amazon warehouse with the rest of my personality going away.
Question for Artists (of any kind): When did you start calling yourself an "Artist" / WHY do you feel you can call yourself an artist? (or can't call yourself an artist I'm interested in that too) (this is like a 2000 character toot btw)
@lapis honestly I’m still real mixed about it. ADHD and lack of free time keep me from art for bucks even as a sideline. I kinda go with artist because it’s the most compact way to explain what I do.
@amaranth@weirder.earth I thumbed through, and got to the Silent Strider section (they're favorites), and they mention that Striders tend to be from diasporic peoples as their biggest nod to ethnicity, then included a Pentacostal preacher as one archetype. By comparison to eliminating the game's (admittedly fucked up) Romani and potentially MENA representation, the Hart Wardens still read as *very* Celtic; the Glass Walkers included what was probably a African-American archetype. This hit a really sour note.
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@Oneironott ugh. I’m sorry it’s being one of those days. Hope it lets up on you soon.
@Bwee thanks! It’s being A Day.
@alexpostfacto@tech.lgbt @Bwee a five pound dragon that glares ferociously? That’s a cat.
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