Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

* up with anxiety *
* clicks on an Flist link *

my brain (to the tune of Wild Thing):

PLANT VORE!
YOU MAKE MY ASS SORE!
YOU MAKE EVERYTHING GROOVY!

bleah after going to sleep feeling warm and fairly good I had some sort of gross anxiety spike which got me very awake, also connected to apparently needing to pee like an elephant. I am now vaguely thinking about taking one of the "gothic flanged mace to the head dose of melatonin" tablets

@frost I have a cup of chamomile tea! Got a teabag from a friend aaaaages ago.

probably should NOT snack this late at night but that bit of adulting was REALLY a lot. So I have a slightly underripe persimmon (I like them crunchier) and am thinking of making tea.

@frost the rent is ouchy since it jumps up something like $80 every year (so a $960 increase annually overall), and this place hasn't changed a damn bit. Car stuff gets weird; with car, you get car insurance plus gas money but you also can get places pretty easily, and when there's work, it's definitely worth the expense. I wish it weren't all so fucking crippling, and that I could actually manage to save up some.

actually y'know what, I needed to do it so I paid off the goddamn liver fluke nematode parasite car insurance and it's DONE and now I can worry about money for December rent and if I'm lucky I'll have enough to buy groceries. Gonna listen to the Green Tara Mantra, I knew doing this was going to upset me pretty badly.

@frost I'm between jobs and it is VERY IMPORTANT that I spend money on car insurance rather than more books about dead Greek people.

I do not need to get really baked. I do not need to buy books about Cycladic stuff. I do NOT need to get really baked, eat all the mezedes in the cabinet, AND buy books about Cycladic stuff.

@eredien cool, thanks! I'm still fairly swamped by all sorts of reading.

oh yeah it's my favorite Shpongle track, "Dude Do You Think You Can Drive to Get Tacos, I Think I'm Way Too Fucked Up to Drive Right Now"

... yeah apparently I am WAY more in a mood for Shpongle than for Heilung.

HEILUNG: Mushrooms gather in circles

ME: The gnomes have found a new way to say hooooooooraaaaaaaaaay

someone posting hole on main got me to interrupt Heilung to play Head Like a Hole, the Teenage Vengeance Fantasy Theme Tune™️

ooh, entire Heilung concert posted to YouTube. I wanna know where's the part when they ask for a volunteer from the audience to be hung, knifed and dumped in a bog?

apparently my musical association for "Gaite Parisienne" is;

NO TIME TOLOUSE! A story of the wild and lawless days of the post-impressionists!

@eredien Just Like Heaven, even if A Forest comes very very close.

No nut November? But without Brazil nuts, how will I get 1-5x my recommended daily dose of selenium?

riddle me this Batman, you pee from your penis, so why don't you aay from your anus?

holy crap; "Pictures of You" dates from '89, but "Friday I'm in Love" dates from '92, and the question "what's your favorite pop song from 1989-1995?" prompts the realization that somehow I now like "Pictures" more than "Friday."

Neither of these are the best Cure song though.

Jai guru deva om,
Nothing’s gonna change my world,
Nothing’s gonna change my world.

@chimerror I gotta believe this is some sort of basic cognitive distort, personal stuff plus “I gotta prove myself worthy of safety to these people.” Something you basically get free with your brain, such a bargain.