Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Dead Kennedys - Let's Lynch The Landlord https://youtu.be/aCiYmCVikjo via @YouTube

frankly I feel like they're intentionally harassing the residents (this is the second time within a month they've been in the place) to get folks to move out so they can jack the prices up more for their desired residents.

Landlord Is a Wanker https://youtu.be/UtChTq2trdU via @YouTube

okay, tenant's union hotline is unavailable and doesn't allow leaving VM as an option, so I guess I call Monday.

Wanna talk to someone about gender and family stuff. Wanna talk to someone about D&D stuff. Here seems kinda inconvenient, Twitter seems actively bad, and I feel kinda unwanted in some Telegram communities.

Trying to remember; in the last 30 days or so I went from a NYE party where I felt accepted and wanted, to my job functions largely going away, getting downsized, looking for work and interviews, went to one convention, got FOMO for two others, had two difficult parent things, one maintenance fucking around in my apartment, some gender and personal stuff with the world getting shittier, during still short cold days. It makes sense basically getting a job that intimidates me, kinda wrecks me.

Still profoundly depressed. We’re talking, “I lucked into poppy seed rolls right out of the oven and I’m depressed” profoundly.

Thinking of old skool White Dwarf this morning; Wargames Illustrated (which doesn’t have especially large type) had an article about Hail Caesar, with bits of the book to generate interest… which I parsed as *insets* and was trying to read the tiny font for a while.

"Never forget, never again" is a very noble and unfortunately very hollow sentiment.

And I need to shut up about this right now before I get my probably tranny heeb ass booted off what I consider a rightwing collaborator website.

THE SCENE: It is the seventies and James Brown has contracted lycanthropy.

BROWN: Unh! Somebody help me! I'm burning up!
AUDIENCE: YEAHHHH!

BROWN: *convulses on stage, legs shifting digitigrade*
AUDIENCE: YEAAHH!

BROWN: I feel good! Awooooooo!
AUDIENCE: YEAAAAH!

Trying to tell myself that I'm not walking right back into basically the job I had in 2017.

Really; the abuse I faced in that position was intense enough that I thought about killing myself multiple times a day at some points that year, my usual rate of smoking went from one cigarette every 1-2 weeks to days when I'd have five cigarettes, and some triggers got so deeply entrenched that I am debating turning down a job offer simply because I got REMINDED of them.

Even though a lot of things feel different about this one, and I am better able to cope, that hit hard enough in such a short period of time I'm still really shaken.

has anyone yet sampled the wolf's "Pick it up" from The Last Wish and put it with a ska sample yet?

Buster's Big Opening https://youtu.be/20EB1GzqlJQ via @YouTube

around 3:20 the tone suddenly shifts from CHRISTMASTIME! to THIS IS MY BLESSING THIS IS MY CURSE WHO AM I I'M SPIDER MAN

basically someone managed to hit three or possibly four triggers within a 30 minute timespan, while I was already pretty fatigued.

I'm feeling a lot more stable than earlier, which was *bad*, but am seriously debating having an entire edible.

years ago, probably because I have neither interest nor aptitude in programming, I missed my chance to become a coder, which is unfortunate because that's one of the better ways for non-neurotypical folks to make money. And I have been paying for that mistake ever since.

Know what I hate about job hunting? It’s that if successful there’s no feeling of accomplishment. I haven’t gotten anything good, I’ve just staved off dying under a freeway on-ramp a little longer, it’s just a different group of people who’ll hurt me, a different someone else’s dream I get to grow. It’s like how every election feels futile, like it’s Dunkirk not VE Day.

The 13th Warrior Rejected Score - The Council https://youtu.be/uZHLoIGXzXc via @YouTube

oh wow, check this out, it sounds *very* Dead Can Dance!

Suddenly I realized why the AI stuff pissed me off so hardcore.

Pro AI arguments basically add up to "YOU PEOPLE are all rich powerful elitists, fuck your creators' rights, fuck your survival, you need to be brought down by something which happens to make me look awesome/save me money."

What marginalized group does that version of artists sound like to you?

psyching myself up for interview with "The Beserker at Stamford Bridge," "The Fire Dragon" from The Thirteenth Warrior, and of course, "Immigrant Song."

and a Hormel Deviled Ham Spread sandwich.