Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

reiterate that neither my family's take on religion (we have to do this because we've always done this) nor the culture I grew up in (we do this out of fear of punishment far more than from hope of reward) gives me much help faced with trying to figure out just how religious I want to be.

clearly while up with acid reflux (really there was no way I was going to get away with spicy tomato meat sauce) is a great time to look through art archive stuff

plus side is I actually don't hate the stuff or my personality 13-14 years ago

minus side is all the self-recrimination

this also included posted photos from a literally life changing vacation. Would you believe at some point I actually had brown hair?

#drawing today, kinda simple stuff owing to lack of time

geez just how much weed did they smoke when they wrote this track

so then I thought hey actually yeah I should listen to Ween for a change, and this "Cold Blows the Wind" is a really good memorable tune

and it's The House of the Rising Sun

I'm SO FUCKING SKEEVED rn

*sticks chest out real far*

your wardrobe is beyond compare
with polka-dotted underwear
and old concert t-shirts that say WEEN
your smile looks like you never floss
your breath's like marinara sauce
and Ah cannot compete with you Jolene

It feels autistic af to respond to an icebreaker at a meeting with how you don’t really do TV or podcasts and it’s been a while since you watched a movie but you’re reading about Mycenaean cult sites and Shang through Warring States period burials. Check me on this please you could wind up this way just from ADHD etc though?

Friends are planning to hike Saturday, and I REALLY want to go along… but it’s Rosh Hashanah, and feel I need to do something; and because as usual I’m dirt poor and completely unprepared, I didn’t get tickets to services etc, so I’d be alone for that. Now my plan is to get up early Saturday, pray, see if I feel up to driving south. Holidays are supposed to be a blessing not just hardship, and besides I see G-d more in forests anyway.

Last photos from Sunday’s hike!

More of Sunday’s hike!

And now there’s nothing work wise, which makes me paranoid we’re about to be swamped, and without feeling okay to pull out paper and draw, I have lots of time for shitty body image thoughts SO maybe it’s time to post photos of Sunday’s hike.

Today’s sad but funny social media thing since I haven’t been on Instagram for a bit is the guilt trip about following people’s broadcasts or Threads.

“Paints40kminislikeaminordeity, Waybetterartist and 12 others are on Threads, but you’re not following them, Leon, why aren’t you following them?”
*sweats*

Ahhhhh yes, The Lost Boys soundtrack. A classic..

This can’t possibly end up in me whining about how I miss going to Santa Cruz/by extension getting to visit my friend up in the mountains/and pet cats/and watch Steven Universe with her/oh shit this is getting out of hand/rapidly

*clasped hands jpeg*
MEDIEVAL MONKS

AI ART

WHAT AFRICAN MAMMALS LOOK LIKE

Look lady I appreciate that you don’t have Covid, I appreciate that you’re using a face shield and mask, and I basically like you BUT

It’s fucking unfair that you get a cold from a week’s vacation in Vegas and I am likely to get your cold cause I’m stuck here making money for rich landlords.

lost as I may be
in the fog of my own noise and trivialities
Grand Holy Mother, grant me clarity
I am standing on the edge of forever
#SongLyrics

forever

https://youtu.be/VkCHbAd7R9k?si=9FOpsDYsvjqo6L-5

*flips the lightswitch repeatedly*

herr mannelig herr mannelig trolofen i mig
nagot nagot nagot nagot annat

takeaways from trying to render stuff at Barnes & Noble Cafe after work today;

1) I can get through a lot of an elaborate picture after work, but I probably won't finish

2) this feels as good as penciling or inking after work

3) I have fewer "spoons" after a workday and if something gets under my skin, even if I'm hyperfocused and taking down tablet etc is a bigger deal, I shouldn't hesitate to get my ass out of there. I got stressed out when I really didn't need to.

starting the urban legend that Deforest Kelley came up with the name for seven year Vulcan itch because after all it makes sense that the cast’s southerner would describe feeling ridiculously passionate as “upon fire”