Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

some different things I've been thinking about coming together.

I started out thinking about the claim that AI makes art accessible to the disabled, and how I draw with the hand I nearly lost (in fact, how I was trained to hold stuff tightly screwed with my drawings for years, and I had to re-learn that in turn). But honestly, what really made the difference with art for me wasn't a plagarism machine or even savvy physical therapy, but praise or encouragement at the right time, and being interested enough to keep going when I suck. If I have an inborn anything it's the "this interests me," not whatever "artistic talent" is.

I think a lot of the AI "artists" want the compliments connected to the highly polished stuff, there's never a stage where you put stuff on paper and it just sucks or even it's good but kinda bland without color or a background. Intersects with this myth about talent, learned hopelessness that if I can't make it look really great now, I'll never be able to make it look really great. None of the really shitty drawings or off days get to count at all.

And THIS part, I understand buying into several hundred percent. I was discouraged from drawing as a kid, and now that I'm no longer right in the middle of my-art-sucks-and-I'm-a-miserable-failure, I can more clearly see how that internal talk echoes that earlier discouragement.

down down under West Virginia
down down in the pitch-black earth
down down underneath, she cried,
"my love is somewhere in that mountain"

#SongLyrics

oh YEAH Pyretta Blaze, definitely the best song on the album

no wait this is World Coming Down, which is INCREDIBLY good

PETER STEELE: Everyone I love is dead!
PETER'S BANDMATES: Hey wait
PETER STEELE: I didn't mean it that way guys, here... you're nightmare creatures dwelling in a twilight realm of neither death nor truly living, and I love you very much.
PETER'S BANDMATES: We love you too!

and they're only gonna change this place
by killing everybody in the human race
and they would kill me for a cigarette
but I don't even want to die just yet

NOTHING can stop me now cause I'm the Duke of Earl! (M Evil Outsider, 136 hp, 20 HD, AC 22, DR 5/DR 3 fire, electricity, acid, cold)

it's time for the Horrifying Furry Bloodbath song!

https://youtu.be/raH3gShAylo?si=NvB4ntlDmaHAh39f

one of the best covers out there in general. Alav ha shalom, Toots, you're missed.

"Which did you like better, Jedi or The Empire Strikes Back?"
"Empire"
"Blasphemy!"
"Empire had a better ending. Luke gets his hand cut off, finds out Vader's his father, Han gets frozen and taken away by Boba Fett, it ends on such a down note. That's what life is, a series of down endings. All Jedi had was a buncha muppets!"

know what time it is?

it's time to JIZZ! OH YEAH!

https://youtu.be/ldMenApN_Kg?si=9toa2dPXO9cQ-bBQ

https://youtu.be/A0PLN9FCfA8?si=9wq1peA91y3YWe1z

at 2:43

AAAOOOOOOO!

*snarls*
*arches back, tongue out slightly*

I said steam, steam
other bad dreams
goin' up to Harlem with a pistol in his jeans
a $50 bill inside a paladin's hat
and nobody's sure where Mr. Knickerbocker's at

shine shine a Roosevelt dime
all the way to Baltimore and runnin' out of time
the Salvation Army always seems to wind up in the hole
they all went to heaven in a little rowboat
clap hands
clap hands

I live cement
I _HATE_ this street
give dirt to me
I bite lament

Best song by The Cure?

I had one wasn’t actually as bright idea as I thought it was so now I’m sitting in a tangle, of traffic, moving very slowly through Renton on my way to a nicer used bookstore, and maybe a Russian deli

man how do I feel good about my artwork when it's currently a dead end hobby and I'm nowhere near half as good as most people posting stuff?

it's like;

they hate Blacks, because at some level Blacks were "supposed to" always be convenient labor, then convenient labor who were also convenient markets, and how dare Black people want something even mildly INconvenient to capitalism like being free, being successful when they weren't "supposed to" be successful, or wanting bussing, affordable housing, a chance at college education.

they hate Queers and trans people especially as the ultimate in xenophobia; Queers demonstrate that the world can be just fine without it being exactly what we're handed as objective truth, and that's scary.

but US? We no longer are the convenience to power we were in medieval Europe; we don't even have the numbers to be sweatshop workers or a good marketing demographic. It's like anti-semitism exists almost entirely as its own convenience and the actual existence of Jewish people who get hit by it, is purely incidental.

ZOOMER NOT KNOW HOW TO KNAP FOLSOM POINTS? UDDTHRUSH SHOW HOW WE ENTERTAIN OURSELVES BEFORE SIMPSONS CAME ON. BUNDOLO! BUNDOLO!

“In 4 years we can have a quincinera for your depression! We can wear black, smoke cloves and listen to Goth music.”
“My Chemical Romance?”
*feels old*

But what if your virus to give willing recipients Freddy Mercury’s mustache gets out of control? What then doctor?