Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

oofgh

hell of it is as soon as I have some hot coffee it'll be soothing and caffeinated, and I'll probably want to sleep like anything

It's not so much "my best days are behind me" or "I peaked in [whatever time]" so much as now's stressy and it's hard *not* to look back at much less stressy periods and idealize 'em.

despite how obviously pretty good experiences have happened more recently, all these times I idealize were before 2016 for some reason.

just a bad night for sleep and I am seriously thinking about calling in sick

Okay, "waking up soaked in sweat because the weather warmed up substantially more than that many blankets worth" was not something I anticipated

and we say we're in love with all of it
and we say we're in love with everything
and we lie. Love to lie.

*races off towards Powell's City of Books*

something I've been thinking about today;

I've gained a lot of self acceptance, being able to remember the world's bigger than my upset, I can look forwards to things improving, sometimes a bad day or a spike in anger is just a bad day or spike in anger rather than an unchanging doomed future.

And it does help, but I'm now feeling like there's a lot of burnout and anger that *doesn't* resolve. I don't yet have a better way of *immediately* working with anger and burnout.

WO ALECH TAADI WO ANA MEGDI
BENIRANE WAAAAAAAAA

*stomps accelerator*

okay, I apparently needed to eat. I mowed through a pork chop, an artichoke and am currently having fig butter on buttered bread

this is in fact a point in favor of me not being an out of control angry monster. "I thought roasted veggies would be good so I cut them up with olive oil, salt, pepper and garlic powder and put them in the oven" isn't a particularly angry monstrous thought.

thanks for cooking this artichoke, past me. It's fucking awesome. Hopefully, future me thinks the same thing about these kohlrabi chunks roasting right now which I impulse-bought while pissed the fuck off at my ex.

Let’s ignore the very real feelings of loss this Stone Temple Pilots song touches and instead ulisten to the Krull soundtrack and make dumb jokes about how the xenomorphs are clearly about to get Mad Mardigan and Willow. Ha ha.

Huh, Schostakovich’s “October.” Haven’t heard this in a while.

*click*
* three minutes later *

POWER BREEDS PARASITES
LONG LIVE ANARCHY!

A tangent. In the 80s with the threat of the Cold War going very hot for about 15 minutes, there was this game, Twilight 2000. Your characters were the remains of an American offensive into Poland, trying to cross a less apocalyptic wasteland where every jerry can and magazine was a fortune to get… home, maybe?

An awesome setup. Perhaps because of the underlying horror this would actually be, EVERYONE seemed to think of it as strapping all the gear aboard an M1A1 and roadtripping to Gdańsk.

People howl an’ people moan,
Look for a dry place to call their own
Try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels an’ the devils try to make ‘em their own!

I mean if I could shift to my superstrong crinos form and start throwing vampires in slow motion, I’d go for that instead of the dual wielding tight pants slow motion option or heck maybe I could even fight florentine in slow motion IN crinos. But I’m biased and maybe you couldn’t do that with 2008 vintage CGI.

And then Werewolf Aragorn called an army of feral werewolves from The Werewolf Paths of the Dead. Also they still have exactly no ranged weapons.

Somewhere Werewolf Aragorn went from dying as a naked human to being saved by Big Dave the Werewolf Puncher to… finding an awesome coat and tight pants?

Definitely early 2000s “if it’s worth an action sequence it’s worth slow motion backflips.” Also, werewolves and vampires have done the nasty to create the Kwisatz Haderach, who could seal the breach and lead Transylvania to true freedom.

I felt sure the “firing ballistae into our own castle” sequence was gonna end in a heroic slow motion leap but apparently THAT was Lucian escaping to do the Braveheart speech.

I’m not sure what arming guys who’ve never swung an axe but can shift to crinos is gonna accomplish with no ranged weapons.

Fortunately Big Dave the Werewolf Puncher is there. And now Sonja the 5th generation Ventrue only also she’s a third generation Brujah who’s the second gen Ventrue’s biological daughter and DTF. This is kinda confusing.