Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

I am attempting to go through customer service, as SHOULD be procedure when the website DOESN'T FUCKING WORK, to swap out this thing which is a violation of personal boundaries for someone else's convenience in the first place, so right now I would like to punch something or better yet just reschedule the goddamn drug test, go piss for it, and not have to worry about it again.

fucking goddamn useless Nazi pieces of shit. I just want to do your required drug test - never my convenience, always yours - and have my boundaries overstepped. I am TRYING TO COMPLY WITH YOUR ORDER.

apparently today's being a needs slow boot up/everything joyous and good from a few days ago feels like months in the past sort of morning.

oh boy. Someone outside (or elsewhere in the apartment complex?) was yelling so my next door neighbor yelled at them, too about how he was gonna call the police etc. Needless to say this is nervewracking.

Suddenly the rain picked up from Ghost in the Shell to The Seven Samurai.

so you run and you run to catch up to the sun, but it's sinking
and racing around to come up behind you again
the sun is the same, in a relative way, but you're older;
and shorter of breath,
and one day closer to death.

ev'ry year is getting shorter,
never seem to find the time.
plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines,
hanging on in quiet desperation is The English Way,
the time is gone,
the song is over,
I thought I'd so much more to say.

Home, home again.
I like to be here when I can.
When I come home cold and tired,
it's good to warm my bones beside the fire.

Far away, across the fields,
the tolling of the iron bells
calls the faithful to their knees
to hear the softly-spoken magic spells.

Ron "from 1939 to 1945, the most important mission of an RAF fighter pilot was to do barrel rolls to soaring major key horns" Goodwin

This morning, I'm once again realizing that a lot of good things require pushing through even MORE tasks and even MORE frustration, and especially if in childhood more tasks and frustration are usually a sign of you being punished as well as rewarded, and you never get to see the good wanted people push through more tasks, it just feels like treading water forever.

Furry #drawing today, some ideas for an anthro seal character. Naked with bits showing, one inset detail is erect boybits.

#drawings today, listening to King Missile while waiting on a meeting.

bleah, apparently this morning's full of all sorts of being angry at people, then feeling guilty about being angry when they're the good guys, and self-recrimination for not pushing hard enough on streaming and running patreons and ko-fi and other self promotions.

I have seriously no idea how anyone else gets to my age without either being a textbook model of success or killing themselves off, and I'm pretty sure it HAS been done before/ is being done now.

So I was feeling pretty good thanks to Half Price's holiday sale, and I thought hey! what if I hung out at Starbucks and read until they closed. At this point my stomach said hey! all you ate during a heavy yardwork/driving day was two leftover slices of 'za and three cookies? And as soon as I stepped into my apartment suddenly here was REALLY APPEALING.

Okay I am now under this big heater and out of the wind and my friends will not need to stuff me in a dead tauntaun to keep me alive while waiting for the snowspeeders to find us.

In Warner Bros. mythology, at the end of days Wile E Coyote will finally be released from the Acme Gleipnir he ordered and shall swallow Yosemite Sam whole. would you know more?

Last night’s #drawings, as long as I need to go back to bed why not post ‘em?

oorgh, guess who got a visit from the anxiety and insomnia fairies?

my brain mix n matching war movies in response to soundtracks, specifically the "Ace High March" from "The Battle of Britain" prompts;

"Wir begruessen Sie in die Namen den 3tten Luftwaffe."
"Your German's very good mate."
"Thanks awfully, mate!"

Clearly what everyone needs right now are forest photos from Sunday.