Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Yesterday’s #drawing!

blasting Smashing Pumpkins’ “Today” and mimicking cutting my wrists as is traditional

Very weird quasi lucid dream in that my brain went "wait I've had this dream before" but consciously I don't think I have. About being near the coast in NZ, both I and a Canadian friend were underdressed for very cold/starting to snow. A school tour bus picked us up before it got dark, thankfully.

At some point I should probably get drunk or stoned and talk about coyote as personal and ethnic metaphor - strong enough to keep the association even if my take on the woo shifts.

Okay finally finished invoicing so BEFORE I get caught up in janitor stuff, here’s yesterday’s #drawings. I wanted to work on ungulates specifically for different body types but, also, carnivore faces are easier to anthropomorphize. CW tame nudity

Look, we all know how this’ll play out; Harris will run intellectual circles around, and be far more charming than, Trump. Trump will rapid fire semi coherent bullshit, at least most of which will be horrifying and untrue. Media will declare both candidates performed equally well. So why even watch?

Not this past weekend, but the Sunday before, I visited Lincoln Park in west Seattle. It’s full of trails and ridiculously pretty.

One #drawing from yesterday. CW for gore.

why am I even awake right now?

as I get older I realize that one of my big difficulties is something uncomfortable happens - I'm stuck in traffic or at work (no longer stuck in school or at my parents' place as often), sleep's broken, bits and pieces of the greater world are terrible - and it sets me up to notice negatives. And before I turned 18 and got free, I never had to wait long before something bad slammed in while I was off balance. Consequently a lot of why I feel bad is trained observation bias; it took years getting to where this is obvious, but I'm not quite at "can step past it" yet.

My buddy pirkcoyote@gmail.com lost their fursuit head at Furry Migration;

"It's not at the hotel I already checked. I left my head on either an 18 line bus boarding at the Hyatt around 12:30-12:40 or I left it on the blue line light rail arriving at MoA around 13:30. It was in a black heavy duty trash bag."

photos at https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1PuSAhy7aP6t7P5KGpAe8xSqfFA9Ti8sn

Two #drawings from yesterday

#drawings from or tightened up last Thursday.

Today will probably be posting a batch of #drawings - I tightened up a lot on Thursday then being caught in 2 hours of traffic destroyed any motivation to actually post stuff.

“Man imagine how different this country would be if Gorn had won the 2000 election.”
“You mean Gore?”

* a rubber suit lizard man wearing a vaguely Flintstones looking outfit shows up, makes yummy noises and throws a big boulder *

“No.”

getting older and "I made fried egg and tomato for dinner admittedly within 3 hours of bedtime" gets the sort of acid reflux I used to get from a chorizo burrito and two generous strawberry margaritas

up with acid reflux and having the thing where years of having learned that I'm this utterly terrible person with nothing to really look forwards to, means that I'm capable of rejecting all the negativity as probably untrue - but I still THINK about it, and I can't necessarily come up with positives as a counter.

If that makes sense? The absence of bad self talk isn't necessarily good self talk.

woo weird horny thoughts

One thing generative AI does real well; it combines the disappointment of finding out that cool thing or artist doesn’t actually exist AND the frustration of living in some rich tech bro’s masturbatory fantasy.

the part of Spider Man 2 when a dejected Otto Ottavius, his beloved wife and dreams of a plentiful self renewing energy source now dead, realizes that the secret of Christmas is that ANYONE can do it. Eureka! This year Christmas is on US! Hee hee hee!

housemate is listening to some sort of outraged as far as I can tell trans man's podcast about the Olympic boxing controversy and we're all technically on the same side but

1) Anger is easy for me so I don't trust people trying to pull my anger

2) I don't trust buzzwords, I'm supposed to automatically believe everything as soon as soon as imperialism, colonialism, racism or fascism surfaces, same as Russian, liberal and communist are other words supposed to automatically decide my opinion.

3) I don't LIKE being angry and wanting to be angry in my spare time

4) I definitely don't trust people pulling my anger when it's someone's cottage industry