Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Thinking about people on the other side and how a lot of them are probably okay people. Hear me out.

Recently found out about Heinrich Severloh in wargaming magazines. The Beast (or Butcher) of Omaha. Farm kid gets drafted, says impolitic stuff in Russia, winds up stationed at a foxhole with a squad level machine gun and a couple of rifles, overlooking Omaha Beach. Severloh fires everything at the Americans. He thinks he's shot 1000, maybe 2000 of our guys (unlikely) and the next day he surrenders. The war's OVER for him, it'll haunt him, he cries when he talks about it decades later.

About the furthest you can get from a hardcore Nazi.

But the people he shot were still dead or badly wounded.

"maybe this week wasn't the best time for an intensive dentist appointment" they thought, nearly bursting into tears while cooking and overhearing housemate playing a choral cover of "The Answer is Blowing in the Wind"

still beats my Dad's liver cancer scare on election week in 2016

business sign: Burgermaster home of the Baconmaster

me: YOUR LIFE RUNS FASTER
OBEY YOUR MASTER! MASTER!
MASTER OF BURGERS IS PULLING YOUR STRINGS

Did not expect to figure out something relatively inspiring this week, but I think I just did

#drawing yesterday

I THINK I was able to rejoin the ACLU. If not I just dropped money on 'em, it's not like they won't use it, hopefully for ACTUALLY protecting people, not like the last time I was a member.

I couldn't recall my old membership number, so I'm a new NAACP member again.

Anyway have a #drawing

I slept not much last night as you might expect from something jumping up and down on my CPTSD with lawn cleats. Consequently I’m spoiling for a fight, and shaky; and ask your forgiveness if I snap or break down at you.

My ancestors lived in a world which told them they were disposable shit compared to the GOOD people, frequently by making them unwilling refugees or by killing them off. Part of what must've kept them going was feeling they had the right ideals, and feeling they had the right community.

Similarly the Refuge Vows call out not just the Buddha and the dharma but also the sangha; that it's not just my own innate worth, and not just my values, but my community.

I think I'm onto something with how I'd rather lose with all y'all than win with all of them.

This upcoming regime is going to kill me. Either I'll die in prison, protest, hate crime, or homeless camp thanks to their bullshit, the environmental effects of their deregulation will get me, or the wear on my emotional and therefore physical health will. But I was always going to die, and the key question is how I live before that comes to an end. I did the right thing here. I will continue to try and do the right thing on my path through prison, protest, hate crime or homeless camp.

Remind me this gives me hope, when I'm screaming in discomfort, will'ya?

awake again, took a melatonin, hopefully will fall over again.

damn, I really could use a cigarette

you ASSHOLES

you fucktastic Scheiss fuer Gehirnen

you absolute human shit, I grew up in your goddamn southeast fundie crap for 18 fucking years of my fucking life and it was crap, it wasn't some paradise

I'm sick of my planet being destroyed because you guys hate Black people or whatever the fuck

we COULD HAVE BEEN AN OKAY COUNTRY but you SHITS decided no it's way better that we be some repressive fucking Christian Klan masturbatory fantasy

fuck all y'all!

gyatei gyatei haragyatei harasogyatei boji sowaka

today's "phrases you can sing in place of My Sharona in the song My Sharona;"

* toaster pastries

* Leonard Nimoy

* Henry Rollins

puttin' on the Korngold soundtrack for "Robin Hood," and cheering SOFT FOCUS SOFT FOCUS at the appropriate point

naw just kiddin'

but fencing during the appropriate points? Not kidding. And I'm gonna stop before my downstairs neighbors yell at me.

oh yeah guess what time it is

https://youtu.be/cKkDMiGUbUw?si=Ot5yGjXgn4JNTwlB

unrelated to uh

this marinated zucchini I threw together Friday for Saturday's Samhain-like thing? Came out AWESOME.

Have you ever thought about what you could eat if you had Wolverine’s healing factor? You could drink a chorizo-potatoes-and-egg milkshake. You could mix ghost pepper into cream cheese and spread it on figs. You could make a literal everything bagel by putting everything in the fridge on a bagel. You could have all this right before bedtime.