Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

#drawings from earlier today

this inspired by the way the end of Heavy Metal combines a ride off into the hills western motif and a saucer finally leaving earth's gravity sci-fi motif. Which really is accurate to what the movie is when you think about it.

All of today’s #drawings

* puts on Head Like a Hole *
* starts doodling people in trenchcoats firing twin mini-uzis, shotguns, chambering rounds in pistols, etc *
* it's the Devo cover! *
* starts doodling potatoes, people on pogo sticks *

bottoms requiring their tops fight is not actually a "Beyblade Battle"

a Build a Bear for 2025 where you make your own labubu

a labubratory, as it were

*jacob's ladder sparks*

*sings along with Low Rider*

drag
u
la
knows every street yeah
drag
u
la
is the one to meet yeah
dig through the ditches, burn through the witches
take a little trip and see
dig through the ditches, burn through the witches
slam in the back with me

CPTSD tells you no, it was this way yesterday and last month, it will be this way tomorrow and three months from now. PTSD tells you that you need to scramble and NOW or there will be no tomorrow or three months from now, who cares how much of a wreck you are.

A gentler belief in an organic shift - whether that's feeling better in a few hours, or life overall improving in weeks or years, is a GREAT counter to this. Thinking this requires conscious effort for me.

But aging dumps me right back in C/PTSD mindset. Sure, I could slowly save up to replace the car or get a fursuit someday - but what are the chances some adult will come up with a way to destroy my savings and upend my life in the meantime? Sure, I could trust that drawing what feels good right now will help me get through the week and eventually be practice that adds up - but how long do I have before cancer or heart disease takes me out and I never get around to the big drawings I'd wanted? That sort of thing.

Does that make sense?

#drawing earlier tonight since more people seem to see drawings if I post them later.

the part of "The Coyote and the Cowboy" which makes me tear up, even if I think it's kind of a dumb (but fun) song

GM: "Have you [the PCs] met Kelly's [important NPC] mom?"
Me: "No, has she got it going on?"

Labubu petty labubeousie visiting labublangerie

Tonight’s #drawing

#drawing last night; in an Underdark shrine to Lolth, three adventurers (kobold rogue, tiefling samurai and dwarf druid) confront a lightning throwing drow priestess.

real hard to feel good about myself with all the component parts of my identity being stuff which is either officially made-up and unimportant, or evil.

HOW TO PAINT GRIMDARK!

1) research "Kingdom of Naples Napoleonic soldiers" then do NOT use any of those colors in your uniform
2) paint everything gray with zenithal shading, add gunmetal or bronze in light coats as needed
3) go nuts with black/rust/verdigris washes
4) drybrush fur, add little scratches to leather
5) add a few glowing red or blue lights as needed
6) spatter everything with brown modge podge from your base, so steps 1-5 probably don't matter

I'm basically a glorified garage attendant, so when I'm not the janitor or the meter maid I'm in a tiny office in the garage, being customer service and accounting.

There's enough space for a small AC, but with the AC taking up the vent, the place gets really stuffy and hot - running the AC unit as a fan only and leaving the door wide open really works for temperature and air circulation in weather as hot as we had earlier this week.

The property managers own the garage, and contract us to run it, so they schedule repairs and don't necessarily tell us about them. Recent construction work (removing then replacing foam insulation between concrete floor slabs) has been near where I am for a couple of weeks now, so I didn't think anything was up, but I think they really intensified it the last two days, and this past week they've also had people pressure washing the walls and different people painting walls and different people vacuuming out parts of the basement levels.

Wednesday I felt sort of depressed and congested while I was there. Yesterday my mood REALLY spiraled badly, and my first clue something physical might be getting to me was the basement levels were hazy and got gunk all over my glasses when I went to clean/empty trash there. I was able to close the door for the first time really due to weather, and got slammed by physical fatigue and congestion. I set up taking today off, showered and put literally everything in the laundry.

bleah

Something I theoretically knew already, but keep needing to remember;

Most harm in the world is unintentional, but it only takes a little malicious intent to make me feel like the whole damn thing is willfully, unnecessarily, self righteously sadistic

And since Trump and Republicans are devoted to intentional, vicious, self centered harm the whole world currently looks utterly abusive

Posting this evening’s #drawing, wanted to do something for werewolf Wednesday and international wolf day.