Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Your god says "thou shalt not kill"
But here you are droppin' the pill!
Legal system- what a sham
Flying colors on the final exam!
Gas chamber!
Only way you're gonna shut me up!
Only way you're gonna shut me up!
Gas Chamber!
#SongLyrics

have the third best punk song ever written.

Circle Jerks - World Up My Ass (with lyrics) https://youtu.be/lOtFjSr27ek via @YouTube

#drawings today, ghouls! Maybe ghasts.

Anyway I scored a reduced price “Empire of the Ghouls” on Sunday and since I’ve wanted a copy for literally over a year though not “wanted enough to drop money on a brand new one” I’m all stoked to GM it. If I ever get to GM again.

Big 2022 “can’t decide if ‘I want to punch someone and keep punching them long after I hear something break’ or ‘the sun’s going down, children are playing, friends are meeting up, I’m here drawing and the world is still wonderful’” energy this evening.

Finding out that potential new hires would make my salary has prompted me to request a further raise.

Fucking shit country can’t disintegrate soon enough.

Called congresswomen to ask them to codify EPA enforcement powers independently from congressional approval. It won’t do anything. I am so sick of this fucking country and our monarchy.

Will not accompany my favorite Cure song by howling, at work.

okay, idk what happened but something's setting off some anxiety attack symptoms. Nothing really conscious though. Stress from yesterday processing or what?

There are all these judgment calls where a vital part of competently tackling the external difficulties includes being compassionate and supportive to myself, and unfortunately they're right when I don't have much resource to be that compassionate and supportive for myself. If that makes sense.

I wish I didn't completely hate my day job. Big, nasty shit is going on in the world and I'm getting older and I'm doing what? Being kinda unhappy so that I can make enough money to cover my existence both on shift and off, when the actual good bits are after 6 PM daily and on weekends.

ugh, I don't want to go in later today. I wish I could just skip out.

new excuse for skipping work;

"While I was showering I repeated Rasputin's lines from Hellboy (2004) with appropriate hand gestures, and accidentally roused the Ogdru Jahad, the Seven Gods of Chaos. So now I gotta figure out what to do about tentacles dangling from the ceiling."

Now if your path at midnight dark by a graveyard goes?
And someone whistles? That's Mysterious Mose!
Or on some dark and stormy night while the tempest blows,
If someone whistles? That's Mysterious Mose!
#SongLyrics

I made okroshka (cold soup) and sigumchi namul (marinated spinach).

They talked and compromised on, I wasn’t in trouble, and could continue praying before lunch in Hebrew. Which NOW I knew was embarrassing so I chose to do the other option of uncomfortable silence before lunch. I honestly don’t know why she started, if she stopped, what any of the adults thought, or whether there was some sort of fucky social game going on. The whole “this is gonna be used as an excuse to mandate it” thing is why I thought of the story.

My 4th grade teacher was a piece of work in general, but at one point she decided she was going to lead us in saying thanks out loud, before lunch. Memory loss means I don’t remember how this came up in front of my folks.

Soooo, I’m not sure what my folks expected, but they taught me the hamotzi, basic “thanks for bread,” to say instead. I did and immediately got sent to the principal’s office for swearing at the other kids, and my parents were called.

Today’s been a real example of my belief that I can do all sorts of difficult stuff with slight difficulty but as soon as something hits my buttons I’m miserable. The morning started with being harangued for “doing it wrong” by someone who hadn’t previously offered help or instructions, and I was unfocused, irritated, broken and doomed until that faded into the grind of this morning’s nonstop work, which wasn’t as bad.

I don't want to go into work today, same thing as daily the last nearly 6 months.

Fantasy idea; a Mordor like valley nestled among mountains is so defensible that it hasn't been the home of one BBEG in the past - it's been the base of several. The surrounding countries have it blocked off by treaty so nobody can really build an army there, but a few adventurers or bandits aren't an army and usually get in over the mountains. It's sort of magic Pripyat, returning to the wild and full of treasure, but also lethal magic energy, from the last few wars.