Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Only one #drawing anywhere near finished today, some sort of rose dryad/spirit attacks a dwarf axeman.

We’re at the I want to go home part of the evening, spending part of today in forest only helps so much

… to be fair I always gone with the “they’re all guys” thing and assumed Space Marines were *incredibly* Gay, and that you were well into Imperial Guard before you started finding cis het folks.

I’m great with brilliant pride flag based paint schemes for 40k but I gotta admit, I’d assumed skitarii were ace.

“Are you a boy or a girl?” [low ominous mechanical hum] “yes but what’s in your pants?” “Hoses, wires and several big analog switches.”

You put the lime in the coconut and drink it all up,
You put the lime in the coconut, you stupid muthafucka. #misheardLyrics

those aren't birds, sweetheart, they're GIANT VAMPIRE BATS! #MovieQuote #problematicfave

Aquaman Official Soundtrack | Atlantean Soldiers - Rupert Gregson-Willia... https://youtu.be/wtPIf8dMdSE via @YouTube

this is a hilarious WE'RE THE BAD GUYS! theme.

dum! DUM DUM DUM DUM dah dah dah DUM!

I think I'd choke if I listened to this while baked.

I'M INFERIOR? WHO'S INFERIOR?
YEAH, YOU BETTER CHECK THE INTERIOR OF THE SYSTEM WHO CARES ABOUT ONLY ONE CULTURE AND THAT
IS WHY WE GOTTA TAKE THE POWER BACK!

#drawing today, some sort of tyrannosaurid chases a retro vehicle through the desert and the passenger attempts to fire a LAW at them!

Art of Noise - Close (To The Edit) Version 1 (ZTPS 01) https://youtu.be/-sFK0-lcjGU via @YouTube

oh YEAH it's time for the Mindless Destruction theme tune!

another phrase you can sing in place of "red red wine" is "anal beads"

There is no hope! There is no reward for being a good scout here! The rich and powerful broke the system, and they’re never going to stop making everything worse! Just how bad by comparison, can it be to spend money you don’t really have?

Something eating me today was a post on Twitter about the need to save money and not splurge on fursuits or cons. And I hate to be completely irresponsible but frankly, the social contract has been intentionally broken. Why try to save when it’s only going to go to landlords, inflation and insurers? Why not get cons and fursuits before you die thanks to Republican fueled hate crime, effects of unacknowledged climate change or the next pandemic? What’re you holding out for, a house?

Got a “pistachio apricot croissant” from the froo froo bakery near here. I didn’t know there was such a thing as a “pistachio apricot croissant” but I’ll see if I like it.

More fairly unfinished #drawings from the last couple of weeks. Bullywug rogue, half orc fighter type, wolf anthro in a jacket; Norse axeman, beastman/broo with axe; another Norse fighter type and some sort of Underdark opponent.

So let’s post #drawings from the last two weeks since it’s been so rough I skipped doing it for a while. Dragonborn wizard and rogue or possibly ranger, gnoll wizard or sorcerer with barbarian, and an adventuring party tackles a giant.

Let’s try reposting last night’s #drawings only with expressing less burnout. Dragonborn fighter or paladin vs githyanki, adventurer vs undead riding immense undead spider.

Another potential “tripping hazard” with self worth is; what I do bolsters my sense of self (I draw, I explore, I try to support people, etc) so making me stuff my personality down more or sticking me with a huge bill means I feel less “I am a person who does [whatever],” more “I’m an out of control monster” when I get angry as response to having agency taken away AND while feeling stuck, trapped and treading water, really difficult stuff for me.

Something making this harder is, I’m angrier about subtler injustices (I’ve read ~10 year olds get really upset about unfairness and there was a lot of trauma around then for me). Like I’m obviously going to be angry about surprise bills or TERFs showing up on my Twitter. But I’m also feeling more ADHD or general upset; my interests, personal space and time are officially unimportant, and stuff I don’t find fun or interesting, people who have no genuine interest in me, are all officially vital.

‘Course , this meant when there wasn’t someone around to tell me I was crap, I would be there to do it, when things sucked, and things sucked often.

The more practiced I get responding to stress with “this isn’t because I’m a shitty person,” the less I rely on counterproductive coping mechanism as response to harm or threat, the angrier I wind up feeling in response to the outside world. I’m then VERY tempted to go right back into self hate because I feel like an angry out of control monster.