Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

okay! Today's "looking for jobs in late capitalism has me thinking of cutting my wrists from self doubt and despair" is FINALLY done for today after one of those long "tell us every detail that might possibly exist about your prior jobs, fuck that you've got it on your resume" applications, so I'll eat something and figure out what I'm doing with the rest of the day.

perhaps listening to really schmaltzy Yiddish theater songs will help me feel less melancholy about *gestures*

I realize the EEO surveys are well intentioned but there's still always an element of "well why do you need to know, trying to figure out what my forearm tattoo should look like, fuck off!"

that "all my dreams of exploring below the ocean's surface, of finding out wonderful things about animals extinct long before humans even existed, of traveling across Europe and doing art for money are all gone, replaced by probably winding up in a warehouse again" feeling which probably indicates I need to eat something

we're back to "I really should make a concerted effort to learn Mandarin."

the "Desert Chase" part of the soundtrack, where it's kinda pointless to quote the movie because most of what gets said is...

"Scheisse."
"ACH SCHEISSE!"

"Take this. Wave it at anything that slithers... WATCH IT!"

"Where are you going?"
"Through that wall."

"Indy, the torch is going oooooouuuutt"

*massive John Williams*

"Good G-d."
"Yes, that's just what the Hebrews thought."
"What's that coming out of it?"
"Fire. Lightning. Power of G-d or something."
"I'm beginning to understand Hitler's interest in this thing."
"Oh yes. The Bible says an army which carries the Ark before it... is invincible."

NEO meaning new and LITHIC - i t h i c - meaning stone. Now let's turn our attention to this site, 13 barrow near Hazelton. This site demonstrates one of the dangers of archaeology, not to life and limb although that may, occasionally, occur. No, I'm talking about folklore. #MovieQuote

"DOC! START THE ENGINE DOC!"

"Doc! There's a big snake in the plane!"
"Oh, that's just my pet snake Reggie."
"I hate snakes, Doc! I hate 'em!"
"Come on, show a little backbone willya?"

"This is it, this is where Forrestal cashed in
"A friend of yours?"
"A competitor. He was good. He was very very good."
"Please, senhor, no-one has come out of that place alive."

today's "Raiders was a legit cinematic masterpiece" was thinking about the dialogue between Beloq and the Germans which ends with "the perfect man for this sort of work," Todt. The way the dialogue picks up steam, the way they're in motion, and the music becoming more frantic all turn a plot-required conversation into this tense thing.

when my fist clenches crack it open
before I use it and lose my cool
when I smile, tell me some bad news
before I laugh an' act like a fool
And if I swallow anythin' evil,
put your fingers down my throat
and if I shiver, please give me a blanket
keep me warm, let me wear your coat

so when things look too tough
and your tail is dragging on the ground
and even down looks up - BAD LUCK!
we can show you a good time (a good time)
and we don't charge nothing (nothing at all!)
so shake your nasty stuff, wiggle in the middle now, get the town talkin' fire gang

I'd made these mashed potatoes with grandiose plans of frying potato taquitos dancing in my head (dancing potatoes with onion maracas natch) but then I fried up all the king oyster mushrooms and blanched all the yu choy and ate what I didn't save for later, and wanted a starch so

mnnn potatoes

just because they’re “Mexican grilling onions” is not a reason to shake a bundle in each hand like maracas while yelling ARRIBA ARRIBA

Combining “nobody appears to notice my drawings on new site” with “WotC has given me yet another reason to lose interest in D&D” makes me feel like my hobbies become less and less a means to connect with people

Need to figure out how to honor my emotions as someone angry who can hate very deeply, who has been given good reasons for being rabidly pissed off, in a way that also organically steps away from them without obsessing.

Also I own tons of books and I’m not a bad cook; I probably don’t need another magazine or a big bowl of ramen.