Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

#drawing today, CW for firearms

GANDALF: Fly you fools, fly.

[GANDALF DOESN'T]
[SAD HOBBIT MUSIC]

But in their rage, the gods forgot the Spam in the frying pan, and those who found it were men. Not gods, not giants, but men.

The secret of Spam has always carried with it a mystery. You must learn its mystery meat, Conan. This you can trust.

Are there actually cis men who LIKE being male and actively identify with it rather than it just being another thing they’re stuck with like rent or insurance being shit? Asking for a friend.

The usual; I WANT to go home, sit in the dark online, and see if my debit card is finally here. However I also know that even though I want to far less right now, if I make myself start drawing, it’ll probably help me feel far better.

ME: The Hanging Garden is about losing both biodiversity and animist traditions
ROBERT SMITH: it’s about animals fucking or something innit?

ME: Lullabye is about child sexual abuse
SMITH: my uncle used to tell us stories about a spider man what ate children

ME: A Forest is about werewolves
SMITH: look m8 what’s wrong with you, it’s about being lost in a forest

Subskeet; get a colonoscopy with WHAT MONEY? Even if I HAD insurance my experience is insurers figure out a way to duck out of paying. No, I’m still stuck with my old plan; if I have cancer it’ll metastasize, and finally, FINALLY I’ll get to die.

I should sell my partial suit, preferably to someone with good uncorrected vision or who wears contacts!

My hopes feel less and less achievable and my fears seem closer and closer.

“WHEN FUNGI AND ARTHROPODS RULED THE EARTH”

WELCOME… TO THE ENTIRE HISTORY OF THIS PLANET PARK!

* soaring John Williams, etc etc*

Forget actually eating these cookies, I’m just gonna crack the wrapper and get a huge sugar buzz from the fumes. The Spice is in everything, changing my consciousness, whooooa.

Sadly Devil’s Night is Monday, but I *probably* can’t get people interested in getting together to watch The Crow and eat hot dogs anyway.

Things you can sing in place of “My Sharona,” number 47; “Kaprosuchus.”

here's the deal; a leftist, no matter how radical, no matter how much they might stomp all over my toes (and yes this happens!), basically wants the same stuff I do. I have NEVER run into someone complaining about "wokeness" or using the term "woke" to describe their political adversaries with whom I could find any commonality whatsoever.

#drawing today

“WELCOME… TO THORACIC PARK!”

* majestic torsos wobble across the landscape *
* soaring John Williams *

man I really really want my debit card to show up, and "so I can get cash out and use that to buy more edibles" is only *part* of why.

in case there's Irish Mastodon;

I ran into a neat drawing which pointed me towards vampire folklore I didn't know, BUT that prominently mentions "Strongbow's Tree" in Co. Wexford. I already knew about RIchard de Clare, "Strongbow," because of his invasion/alliance with Dermot McMurrough, but is the tree in any way connected to him? Everything I can find is about the vampire folklore!

some different things I've been thinking about coming together.

I started out thinking about the claim that AI makes art accessible to the disabled, and how I draw with the hand I nearly lost (in fact, how I was trained to hold stuff tightly screwed with my drawings for years, and I had to re-learn that in turn). But honestly, what really made the difference with art for me wasn't a plagarism machine or even savvy physical therapy, but praise or encouragement at the right time, and being interested enough to keep going when I suck. If I have an inborn anything it's the "this interests me," not whatever "artistic talent" is.

I think a lot of the AI "artists" want the compliments connected to the highly polished stuff, there's never a stage where you put stuff on paper and it just sucks or even it's good but kinda bland without color or a background. Intersects with this myth about talent, learned hopelessness that if I can't make it look really great now, I'll never be able to make it look really great. None of the really shitty drawings or off days get to count at all.

And THIS part, I understand buying into several hundred percent. I was discouraged from drawing as a kid, and now that I'm no longer right in the middle of my-art-sucks-and-I'm-a-miserable-failure, I can more clearly see how that internal talk echoes that earlier discouragement.