Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

in trying to accept Yom Kippur as meaningful (there are a lot of ways I could see the holiday as exactly the WORST parts of my issues, and I used to; I'm never exactly going to LOVE this holiday, it's not easy and it's not supposed to be, but I don't want to resent and hate it anymore) I've started seeing it as essentially forward looking.

ANY coming year is full of challenges and here facing them involves accepting my failings (lojong slogan "Drive all faults into one"), accepting or trying to remember connection to a larger world beyond getting caught up in my immediate experiences, and that part of the larger world is that people have a lot more going on than just the part I immediately see and judge. I can think of a fair number of places where I run right up against irritation, fear, fatigue and self hate on the regular, places where I could go reeling off into all kinds of mara.

However the year I'm about to go into is full of big places where I could be upset, and where I can be (and at some point WILL likely be) profoundly hurtful, thanks to a contentious election which yes, involves trying to most compassionately react to people I hate saying and doing things I hate (it's going to be difficult no matter who wins, since that's "trying to retain some sense of compassion while desperately scared" - it's just how the desperately scared aspect plays out); a horrifying war where it would be very easy to dismiss actual peoples' pain, grief and needs through taking a side (and I really worry about my gut level reaction to folks here); and on a far more personal level, my mother's declining health and my father's related role as caretaking making both of them simultaneously more difficult to be with and more VITAL to be with them.

Let's be careful out there.

Please be patient! Baby on board driving carries no cash.

Dedicating Your Foes to Odin As a Bit

“What do Space Marines do in their spare time?” Let’s see Ultramarines help cats cross the street and rescue little old ladies from trees, Salamanders catch up on their smithing, and Space Wolves manufacture and consume lutefisk in heroic quantities.

YT shorts while logged in at home; why does it keep showing me this one dude’s videos about 40K I don’t even LIKE Astartes *clicks on another primarch short*

YT shorts while logged off at work; *suddenly filled with an unreasoning hate for humanity *

Still in a bad mood, here’s yesterday’s #drawings

Osprey's "Warrior" series on Carolingian cavalrymen turns out to be an ehh book on cavalry and a really awesome book on Carolingian/Ottonian military in general. Has a really good bibliography which if I had access to a university library and lots of time I'd poke into.

“Huey! I want you to squeeze these people! I want you to squeeze and squeeze and squeeze. Give me Spice! And then I’ll send you, Dewey-Louie… lovely Dewey-Louie… where’s my doctor?” #DavidLynch #1984 #Dune

on his way to school, Paul hides from bullies in a bookstore. Sneaking away with a book called "Dune," he reads about a far away planetcalled "Arrakis" threatened by the evil Baron Vladimir Harkonen and his nephews, Huey and Dewey-Louie Harkonen. When Paul has a waking dream about being the book's legendary Kwisatz Haderach, he realizes his ability to manipulate the events of the book allow him to ride a giant Luck Worm into battle, overcome the great evil, and wed the beautiful Princess Irulan.

the Spacing Guild and its Navigators whom the Spice has... mutated over 4000 years use the orange Spice gas to fold space, that is, to get burritos without ever leaving the couch

A customer just bowed to me and I bowed automatically, so clearly watching all those jidaigeki had an effect.

#drawing yesterday

Heh. Mulatu Astatke’s Wikipedia entry starts by explaining he’s *Christian* Amhara, so I’m evidently not the first person to wonder if he’s one of us.

oh YEAH someone posted all of The Abominable Doctor Phibes to YouTube

one of the best movies EVER MADE

#subpost in Ancient Rome it was pretty common to get takeout regularly

yeah but they kicked me out of Taco Bell last time I inscribed the table with a crude picture of Lucius the Retiarius and a comment about how he now fishes for men's buttholes

"think about the best night's sleep you ever had. At Tempur Pedic we're dedicated to helping you sleep like that"

uh so your company's going to edge me for a while until I have an incredible orgasm and then be big spoon?

thrown out of the Enya concert for filking Orinoco Flow to be about Gay sex

you can fuck it you can suck it
from the halls of Montezuma
you can yank it you can crank it
to the shores of Tripoli

I don’t care if Monday’s shit
Tuesday, Wednesday throw a fit
Thursday I’m so done with it
It’s Friday I’m in love!

Anyway here’s a #drawing from yesterday, with dark areas left open.

I don’t care if Monday’s crap
Tuesday, Wednesday dumped in my lap
Oh Thursday I just need a nap
It’s Friday I’m in love