Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Look! Life’s special on 100 Women Who Changed the World, but not Mary Anning, Mary Leakey or Rosalind Franklin. Please be assured they contributed nothing compared to say, Princess Diana or Margaret Thatcher.

where you come from is GONE! Where you thought you were goin' WEREN'T NEVER THERE! Where you are ain't no good unless you can get away from it! Do you understand?

* promptly watches Matrix Revolution's highway scene but with Jesus Built My Hot Rod playing instead of the actual soundtrack *

Space Marines explained on a scale of Raptors to Black Templars

why yes person I'm subposting, I actually CAN imagine what it's like to have this Administration obviously not like me, and yet never have nice outsiders feel the faintest concern about folks like me because OTHER people are always the worthy ones.

It's almost as though multiple minorities share similar issues. Imagine.

Tonight’s #drawing actually wasn’t inspired by general dislike of Nazis. Instead I was listening to a John Williams soundtrack with very stereotypical cues for either 1) soldiers cocking an MG34 or 2) a theropod in pursuit, so I decided to draw exactly that. Hence the Raiders-esque German dialogue!

This morning’s #drawings

pronouncing "Roboute Guilliman" as "rrroboot gwillema'" because someone who serves an emperor while wearing a red and blue uniform (and who WAS originally going to retire as a vintner!) is obviously French

the urge to rant about how the 90s were just plain *weird*; the cold war was over, the nightmares of 9/11 and later lay ahead, and a generation traumatized by nuclear fears and AIDS collectively wondered what to do.

Being nostalgic for the 90s is a little like missing suburban Ohio now that you live in East Oakland, or wishing your nightmares would let up so you could dream about the parking lot at Safeway. It's that sort of "well it wasn't THIS bullshit, but it wasn't actually good either."

https://youtu.be/_nvg81HLDh8

* suddenly wants to run around in the woods and also look at trains and, weirdly enough, I know EXACTLY where I can go locally to do just that *

whoa new Tinariwen album (I probably will wind up resenting the fuck out of them but till that happens, I'm a fan)

https://youtu.be/5sixYPrSnEA

it's like hanging with well meaning but obese and clumsy friends who accidentally step hard on your toes all the time, because you *and* they are both stuck with jerks who aren't as well meaning, who hope that intentionally stomping your toes will drop you so they can kick in your ribs.

Also, the reminder that while drawing, walking, food, etc. won’t necessarily make me feel 100% better they do make me feel better thus it’s important that I do them

Really hit with; the easiest dopamine hits are either having something actually fun to think about, or something personal to feel good about, and that second is a lot less likely if I’m in a self hating headspace enough to dismiss any possible positive about myself… which was way more likely earlier in my life.

#drawings Tuesday and last night

don't unload on yer allies because they've been discovering what you grew up with every fucking day of your life

... she says, in front of African-Americans who've been dealing with a way worse version of it.

Also, and I’m now more cognizant of my ADHD than I have been previously in my life, all this is set up with a neurotypical expectation that you can (and must be) emotionally healthy while making yourself do hours of uninteresting drudge work daily, and with the understanding that its benefits are going to be limited; it’s never a one time and you’re done thing.

Oh, and I forgot; you need to be at least low-key involved in pushing back at government, even in the best of times, so your despair is rooted in them pushing through whatever the hell they want, rather than you don’t know if your silence allowed them to push through whatever the hell they wanted. This is especially bad right now.

It’s vital for your physical, therefore emotional, health to exercise, get exposure to direct sunlight, clean yourself regularly, eat regularly, sleep regularly, and avoid self isolation. You probably also need a hobby. You might need to work on your issues. You’re also trying to save money and you’re probably working on this around a job that eats a lot of your time and energy. It all feels like it’s a little bit too much honestly.

male-presenting kneecaps

End of assignment today as it’s been 90 days. Was always going to be difficult finding another job in Trump’s recession, it’s going to be even harder during Trump’s war and recession,