Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Propose referring to all (male presenting) yokai as boys. Oni? Horsehead/oxhead boys. Tanuki? Ball boys. Kappa? Murderous cucumber-eatin’ shelly waterhead boys.

Here’s one PTSD take on “triggered;”

Someone who gleefully, incorrectly uses the term for “sets off hours/days of dissociation, possibly suicidal thoughts and self hate” for “skeeved someone off,” reads as someone who WOULD trigger me for the lolz.

So not a trustworthy, fun dude.

The thing about referring to cunnilingus as a beard/mustache ride is, I imagine you have a li’l rollcage keeping you in a seat shaped like a big fiberglass mustache, and an announcer tells you to remain seated and keep your hands inside the mustache while it rolls down the track.

The chance is just as fat
As a union bureaucrat
That the life you wanna live
Ain’t the one you’re looking at.

Now that I'm sober/insomniac;

a good thing yesterday was, I went to the comic shop. The rows of books full of linework in different styles, was a reassurance that maybe I could do similar stuff and have it be okay. Idk; this is coming out wrong, probably doesn't make any sense.

@anthracite awww damnit this Goth doing a performance to the "Trial by Stone" soundtrack from Dark Crystal isn't in fact a burlesque act as I'd hoped.

#drawing to try pulling out of this bad mood. It does help... cw for fantasy violence.
https://awoo.space/media/HX4K59QQU6g3cuURs9Y
https://awoo.space/media/DjyhSA79mV87_kjFOlo
https://awoo.space/media/_oINKaIrrSmkPmqmN4E
https://awoo.space/media/H5_c9w8Fav7b32rq1dE

I feel really trashed rn. I guess with all the negatives looming in my life a little drawing can’t fix everything and merely helps, which is kinda obvious when you think about it.

It bugs me how I’m about 2-3 steps away from the sort of Trumpist GG asshole I resent. How do I forgive myself, them, avoid falling back in bitterness or feel better about where I am instead?

today's dose of the surreal has been brought to you by looking for reference for an extinct and even bigger hippopotamus;

https://japari-library.com/wiki/Hippopotamus_Gorgops

Okay, I'm slowly doing better. Slowly. G'night Masto, dream of wonders.

one dentist visit, a nap, a shower and two hours worth of drawing at Peet's later I feel a lot less like I'm worthless shit waiting to die. I still don't feel great though.

And I’m sorry about melting down all over Mastodon but birdsite makes me feel terrible, I don’t feel wanted or integrated on slack, and my housemates are basically strangers I kind of like. So here’s it and maybe people don’t mind me screaming into the void.

Okay all I have to do is make it through this emergency dental appointment and then I can nap, shower and draw and be online and seeing if I can deal with this

I wish I were a good person who was smart and had good smart people jobs and came from a good ethnicity and did right things. Unfortunately I’m too fucking cowardly to do the right thing and make this world better for all of us, me especially

Ok so; I’m dirt poor. This is part of why I haven’t cut contact with my parents, which feels skeezy as hell, waiting for your folks to die b/c there’s no other way you’ll ever own a house.

Of course the other reason is, I still kinda want to help them. My mom’s mobility is not great, and my dad had a bad cancer scare right after the 2016 election. Ideally I’d like to live close enough to help, but I don’t. Another part of why being trapped *here* is frustrating.

@kara@occult.camp @thefishcrow btw did y’all know about the kukeri? I was poking at them as a reference for dwarf costumes and as far as anyone can figure out they’re a Dionysus cult holdover.

I’m having sort of a bad #TMItuesday so please do ask me things, if you want.

ugh, I feel like shit. The combination of REALLY running into my issues, and bad stomach upset, makes me really gross, as demonstrated by my oh-so-sunny reaction to late stage capitalism over on hellbird.

Maybe, tomorrow, I'll feel like there's some sort of future I want to see.