Cabinet Derg @Motodrachen@awoo.space

@Pan_Natek@beach.city It's... It's dealing with your place being somewhere In Between.

I'm not a Woman, and as much as I tried, I'm not a Man. This would be way harder, but everyone in my Household is kinda in the same boat.

I'm Attractive, I know I'm attractive, and part of me is even Attracted to how I look, but it's still hard for me to really Identify with how I look. Even though I like it too.

I dunno, I guess I'm just down to little nitpicks about my body at this point. And everybody's got those.

@pexl@yiff.life Well, see... I got overexposed to world religion and mythos early on, so I'm pretty sure I had Tohri and Keri at age 15 or so. Mythology lead to D&D lead to online RP lead to being a Dragon.
they've been updated over the last decade and a half, but they're still there. XD

Sometimes I feel like a Poser on here because I'm not pretty and femme like all my trans friends...

And then Kerithe pops back up and reminds me that if its what's on the Inside that really matters, then I'm already There and the rest is just meatspace stuff.
And then she reminds me that if the meatspace stuff -Is- important, then I'm being Stupid again, because all the Women in my life really Really like me already.

Including her. =\

@peachsnout@yiff.life I mean, you're cute and all.

@Dingy_Rat@yiff.life I'm glad you're making progress on your way. Gender stuff can be super complicated and it'll shift on you as you go and who you're with.

Most of these are from 2012-15. I'm so glad I don't look like this anymore.
Not judging anyone who likes being Big, but this was the major 'Transition' for me, because when you're over 300lbs, there's not many options but to make your own clothes.

Now I can get skirts and dresses off the rack just like I'd get Jeans and Teeshirts. =P

Picked up my mom from work and had a really positive conversation with her about my life with the Multiple systems thing on the way to her place.

It was really nice talking to someone who has more of a grounding in existential philosophy to talk to on these matters. Especially when I can reference the supernatural aspects of it.
My mom doesn't just Get the reference, she can cross ref that to four or five other world belief systems or mythologies.

@electroCutie I get this a lot, it takes a lotta practice to get to where you're not only comfortable with others but project that comfort outwards and can include yourself without being unwelcome.

@Manik@snouts.online Tohri: My self-doubt is built on the same scale and from the same stuff as the rest of me. If we could have gotten through it with the plasma cutter and the grinding wheel, it'd be Gone by now.
Kerithe: So we're building the psychic equivalent of an Electron Discharge machine, and just gonna eat through the bastard with fifty thousand unstoppable watts. Might wanna wear the goggles, sweetie.

@sudo_bee My sexuality three years ago: I'm Pansexual, I guess? I dunno, I'm fat and nobody wants to have sex with me.

My sexuality, Today: I am the tentacle witch your pastor warned you about. C'mere sweetie, and be sure to take your gender off at the door, won't be needed here~

@ouchiness@queer.party *Blushes* Of course! It's a weird kinda split there because I know it's like... an obvious masc signal, but all the women in my life will straight up murder me if I shave it off.

Including Kerithe. She fronts and plays with it Constantly.

@ouchiness@queer.party Thank you! =D I'm really really happy with my hair.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online Ohhhh yeah. Had a couple of those.

Still losing weight now that I'm not stressing from my last job. Also, that's six weeks of unshaven legs and bits, if that gives you an idea of how long the Beard took.

@FreyletSystemFreya I'm not entirely sure why it bothers me. Probably because I'm just trying to do my own thing here without obsession over labels.

The kinda nonbinary where you try and exist as gender Quantum but everyone keeps expecting you to collapse the waveform for them.

@peachsnout@yiff.life What the Actual Fuck?!

Ugh, Thanks random dickpic dude, I was feeling kindasorta okay about being Male today.

I'm sorry men are terrible, little one. I don't think there's a cure.