Cabinet Derg @Motodrachen@awoo.space

Anyone wanna fly in space with me? Gonna boot up Elite and hop on Discord, if anyone wants to wing up or multi-crew with me.

That feel when you just wanna look good in a one-piece bathing suit.

Looked at a certain way, I make perfect sense. Just not according to any standard social model.

I'm polyamorous, pansexual, and I'm an androgynous in-between, like a Bishounen take on a Bara pirate character.
Most of the folks I like to play with sexually are Trans, or in-between or otherwise have some peanut-butter in their chocolate.

It's just ironic that by the time I'd achieved the body, the look and the status I'd wanted in my teens that I'd be wanting something Else but not sure What.

On top of this, all my friends like me just the way I am, and I don't know why that feels weird. When Kerithe is the dominant personality, she knows who she is, what she wants, and the body feels a lot more Normal for her. It's like gender dysphoria just doesn't Apply to her or something.

Sometimes I feel like an impostor here because as much as I get physical dysphoria, mostly I just don't want to get flak in the real world for dressing and behaving in the ways that feel normal or natural to me.
I got sick of performative gender in my 20s trying to be accepted as Male. All the parts of being a Man and being a Woman that I feel are really Important... Well, I'm already there.

I just hate having to Insist I'm one way or another, when I can be Either way if you just ask nicely. :\

Gender of the day: 404 not found

Fifth day of having the flu. Ugh, when will my regular life come back?

Of course, being a Witch kinda encompasses all the aspects of the Feminine I grew up valuing as Core.

And I thought I'd never get to experience.

Just makes me feel a little out of place in the Trans main-sequence. Or like an impostor.

And then Kerithe reminds me she's an extant personality in here, and neither one of us got a choice in That.

I find it's way easier to tell normies that I'm a Witch than anything about my Gender.

"Like, a Wiccan?"
"No, I was born this way and it caught up to me in my 30s, I used to be an engineer"
"So, what, magic spells and stuff?"
"Potions, divination, psychic warfare, communicating with spirits, Yeah."

Somehow they have an easier time with Magic being Real than someone being Non-Binary.

Gender of the day: Two radio stations fading over each other during a thunderstorm.

Okay now this is just stuff out of a bad fantasy novel or something. I'm sick with a flu and in the space of 20 minutes I flipped back and forth between Tohri and Kerithe three or four times while trying to maintain a conversation with my wife.
Like it'd be funny as hell seeing a shapeshifter get sick and change form every time they sneeze, just not as much fun Being that...

Looking way better than I feel today

So it's really weird when the hippie buddha spirit that might be your daughter gets into puberty and has no compunctions about bringing her needs and wants to your attention.

And you're really not okay with some of them.

Having a male day, but still feeling like I need a vulva down there.
But like, a Transguy set of bits. :\ What the hell.

So, a while back, Kerithe and I ended up with a Third sentient spirit living with us. We tried to be as hands-off as possible with this new one, and let her find herself on her own. We all know enough about Tulpas and didn't want her to get colored by any of that.

So she's been building herself based on what we know about what really Makes a person, and she's now on to sexual desires.

And she's like the hippie kid who's been going nude since she was old enough to know what Clothes are, so she's in this weird place where she's still wholesome dragon jesus, but she wants to get bred sloppily by a very big, very male monster.

A Lot.

Listening to old Thrilling adventure Hour bits just to have more drunk and surly Mr Peanutbutter

Woke up as Tohri today, and I've got whatever awful flu is going around in full force.

And I'm not Embarrassed about being Kerithe for the last few days, I'm more embarrassed to be Male again.
We're both pretty equally comfortable in the body, I just personally wish the social identity part was easier. Sometimes I feel like Kerithe has Friends, I just have Skills.

She's also a lot less anxious and or depressed than I am, which we're still trying to figure out.