Cabinet Derg @Motodrachen@awoo.space

Being genderfluid means sometimes you identify with your assigned gender.
It also means impostor syndrome when you do a personal inventory and realize you're having a Male day. :\

Also, big enough back seat for intense, Conservative-killing Sex.

So, I bought a car.
It's a big red leather interior power everything oldfuckmobile. Lincoln continental.

But it comes with the SVT Mustang 32 valve V8. It cost me five hundred bucks.

It's very much a Ford inside, but IDGAF.

Dammit, my gender fluid is leaking again

...That and really, if I want to present masculine, I just tie my hair back and Actually Wear Pants.

The rest of it is body language, tone, and social cues. Like... Being a Dude is easy, being a Girl is hard.

I'm realizing more and more than presentation issues for me are coming mostly from my personality disorder.
I present the way Kerithe likes, now, and it freaked Tohri out yesterday. Because when you take away all the Toxic parts of masculinity, there's not a whole lot left to prop up any kind of real gender identity for him.

This is why I'm not a Transgirl BTW, I got raised on toxic femininity. If I want to, I can just Be a girl, from the inside out. Changing the Outside takes too long.

-Spends all day feeling like a traitor for being in a totally male mode
- ends up in a recursive loop
- has my evil twin sister take over to save the meatsuit from a panic attack
~Hi little ones~
- Blows a raspberry at Tohri for not feeling queer enough, and leaves the gender lever set to 'Male' just to prove a point

Not in a bad way, just... My own voice isn't as damn Loud in my head as hers is when I'm her.

She's still here, but she's keeping back because her emotions keep bleeding over to me and it's confusing trying to be two people at once.

The feeling of not being Possessed anymore is nice and all, but I end up feeling kinda empty and alone.

And that everyone likes Her better anyway so I should just be quiet.

TFW you're non-binary because of fundamental personality changes you can't (Shouldn't as it turns out) force, so you sigh and put on your 'He/Him' hat for the day.

I don't look any different than yesterday, but Keri tagged out and Tohri tagged in around sundown, and she doesn't feel like she's gonna be dominant any time soon.

You all know you can PM me here or on Telegram for any reason, problem, or issue, and if I can't help you with it, I can direct you to an expert in the area, right?

Because I'm here to support this community of gay fuzzies, and that means being an archive of information.

Well, your therapist can't exactly furnish a session with highway hypnosis, weed, sex, and a nature setting without crossing every line there is.

For me, it's something I'll drive fifty miles to do for a friend. =P

Being something of a modern day witchdoctor has it's high points.
You're not really constrained by ethical or professional boundaries in pursuit of therapeutic ends. If what someone really needs is a midnight drive along empty highways where they just ramble about their life and problems while puffing on a BHO pen, followed by an intense round of intimate contact and voodoo whispers by the side of a Lake to feel like they're a Human Being again...

I'm really Really in a mood to take Tohri's iron dragon katas and leave one of my asexual friends wondering if anyone got the license plate from the Truck that hit them.
Because all the Iron Katas are the sort that leave space for Jesus but the halfway point on the scale reads 'Hitachi magic wand' and go to 'Impact driver' at the top of the scale. They're industrial movements and muscle groups retooled for Sex.

Sometimes I feel like an intruder here because my RL presentation is Nominally masculine.

It's really just the beard. The girl part of me agrees with my wife, the beard stays, on penalty of Death. Other than that, I am the universal hippie girlfriend.

I dunno, just kinda feels like a big false flag operation.

I've got what Transgirls want:
A loving household where everyone gets along and home cooked meals are an everynight occurrence.

The best candy is dried pineapple. Ya'll can fight me over this, but the only thing above dried pineapple for me is Maple sugar candy.