holidays, uspol (-)
I don't like today. I don't like the explosions and loud noises, I don't like the massive agressive grocery store raids leading up to it, I don't like the pressures to celebrate a country I find more horrifying by the day, I don't like the sick conflicted feeling of watching friends celebrate it - out of family obligation, a need for an escape, a desire to hold on to an image of how things SHOULD be...
Everything that has been hard this year seems magnified.
dreams
I dreamt that the airport had not only separate mens/womens bathrooms, but also separate trans men and trans women bathrooms. Somebody had graffiti'd the signs in protest, and the things written were hilarious but I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT THEY WERE. I think "absolute shit tower" was one of them??? Piss Abyss is coming to mind, and while I don't think that was one it IS a killer name so
Trans Bullshit/Medical
I'm just... feeling really shitty and defeated about this, tbh. I contacted my doctor's office, but they take like a week plus to get back to you - it's out of my hands and I'm just stuck waiting and missing shots. Getting to sit around helplessly while my body's hormone balance gets once again fucked up in ways that make me miserable.
Trans Bullshit/Medical
Got a letter in the mail from my insurance today claiming my treatment request for Testosterone was denied because the directions had suddenly switched to daily injections.
Except... they hadn't. I filled this exact prescription last month, the directions say weekly. They've said weekly for /months/. But now I'm going to miss my shot this week! And every week, until this is resolved!! ARGH!!!
Art Rodent, queer as hell, he/they
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