mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
Back when I was in high school and I was more conscious of my nature as otherkin, I practiced and honed my mind's eye regularly. It was to the point where everyone I met or saw, i saw as furry.
It was playful at first as I'd walk with another furry friend and peg folks one species or another. It became regular, along with doing things like imagining my fur and tail and ears while i was doing mundane things. It made everything more engaging.
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
I'm slowly regaining that ability and realizing how much happier it made every day life. It served to beat some of my ADD, by making me much more engaged in everything that I was doing. It was amazing and good until i started straying from the abstract, and focusing on the tangibles of what "I didn't have".
Things are better now.
I'm learning.
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
@Oneironott I need to get better at that, myself. It's something I had, and largely lost, I think... and knowing that you lost it too and are regaining it helps me to understand that was real, I wasn't just faking it.
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
@Oneironott Oh yeah that was totally a thing for me too and I miss it. That's exactly the sort of thing I'm thinking about when I ramble about "making space for daydreaming" etc.
For me there's been a downside to "getting serious about my spirituality" that led to me getting way too caught up in which mystical experiences I can "validate", which seems to be straight up harmful over the long term. Thank you for reminding me of how things can be.
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
@indi yeah, this is been a huge and helpful realization. That things can be as simple as letting go and doing like it used to be. Big sides of that being that I don't -have- to keep second guessing myself or all of this and I owe myself the ability to not stress with this. It should be loose and positive ^^
Other being that it can be both that and serious at the same time.
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
@indi it often sneaks up on me. One day I'll be like "why is this more painful than fun anymore" and I realize it's becuse I lose focus on the abstract and start losing myself in toxic and unhelpful loops
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
@Oneironott I'm thinking about this more and I'm wondering how much also has nan caused by my focus on what I can get out of books and other "week-regarded" recorded experiences (again a search for validity)
Which is not too say they've been bad things to read but they leave out a lot of stuff that was already important to me. They talk about developing aura-sight, not furry-sight. ;)
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
@Oneironott yes... I had, and lost, a similar ability, and I'm trying to regain it now, somewhat haphazardly. :)
mind's eye, past musings, phantom limbs (pos)
This is a fun life, and it SHOULD be fun. I deserve to have this happiness, and I should take mind not to let myself dive too far into thought patterns that make me so dysphoric. ^^'