-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
#nocontexttheatre what happens in the Umbra stays in the Umbra
hypno
drop me, warp me, control me @.@
dreams(~-)
It made me consider what i’d have to do to convince folks around me i was in a loop. It’s odd, but i almost feel the desire to establish some sort of code, idk.
dreams(~-)
I dreamt last night that i was stuck in a time loop.
So i… had the same dream over and over and over, but i was trying to figure out some way of quickly convincing someone that i was in a time loop.
Thing is, time was just frustrating enough that is changed certain patterns randomly so i could never quite predict what was going to happen. (Also dreamlogic, but my brain attributed it to that)
I’m exhausted waking up x.x but it was fascinating
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gb3_4g1TsE
Now listening to this song and ARGGHHH it's just so perfect
Music, Spirituality
Music is a language that our third eye sees through our hears and translates through our experiences, qualia. Sometimes it's different in big or small ways from person to person, but it flows. it doesn't matter. it celebrates those differences.
Music, Spirituality
And why? why does music exist, and has existed for so many millennia. Seemingly, for joy. connection, empathy, emotion.
sorrow. happiness. nostalgia. saudade.
anger, silliness, laughter, celebration.
Sound to heart, bringing emotions, patterns, tone, timber, note, and more sparking associations. the weather, the setting, the emotions. sometimes the serenity.
Music, Spirituality
It's no wonder music is so a part of my spirituality. I was amazed and in love with music's paintings since I could understand the concepts. I was listening in the car seeing vast scenarios playing out like it were second nature.
Then you have this special sort of ambient downtempo that is seemingly focused on being atmospheric, and focused on capturing that moment, somehow, through melody and patterning that invokes things as deep as our ancestry.
Music, Spirituality
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CkCPYoTdA5E
This is the kind of music that always hits me strongest. These tracks that give so much light to the imagination and are immersed in atmosphere. That music can paint pictures with instruments and sound through the air is such comeplete MAGIC to me.
mh(~+), birdsite/social media, CFT reflection
I need to change what i’m doing. Theres no question about it. When disconnected i was happier. I engaged with folks around me and could care more. Be there. I had the energy and spoons that weren’t constantly being drained.
And even more, i’m an empath. I HAVE to keep watch over what is around me, or I can’t really help anyone.
I need to take my life back.
mh(~+), birdsite/social media
Today has been an important, introspective day thanks to housemates. I’m starting to identify and admit some things i really needed to admit.
Things need to change. I need to phase out of using twitter. I need my life back. I need to step away so i can be a happier person.
Twitter is an addiction. Mastodon is better, but it’s still tied to a platform that can unhealthy and damaging.
(life, survival, twitter crosspost) context, politics
It keeps is from blaming what needs to be blamed. The folks in power. It keeps us from finding progress, because ‘the rich and powerful are not to blame; we are’
It’s a fucked up thing i’m finally now analyzing from the outside and it’s terrifying how effective it is that we keep blaming ourselves and not the system around us that should be so much better
(life, survival, twitter crosspost) context
This was advise given to someone, but is equally an open thing. It’s a big feeling i’ve gotten over time and the older generation did NOT prepare us for what we are facing, not that anyone could.
This weird societal tone of “Surviving is something we did Back Then, now we’re living.”
We haven’t nearly gotten there. It’s angering and frustrating but it’s no wonder we tend to blame ourselves SO much.
life, survival, twitter crosspost
It’s a fucked up thing that we’ve all been taught and conditioned to point the blame at ourselves. Folks even look down on others for being “lazy”
We make it so much harder, when life is just -hard-, especially for us folk.
So my advise is to analyze, breath well, and always do what you need to do and try not to feel shame for doing so. You matter, and you need to survive.
We mustn’t break ourselves trying to reach the bar the privileged have set for us.
life, survival, twitter crosspost
Life is more about survival than we are ever told, and mental health and stress matters considerably for survival, and i think we’re rarely ever told that either.
We are told we have to meet this bar that is high above our capability and then when we can’t do so repeatedly we are taught to believe that we are worthless and we are at fault.
But life really just is that hard.
-> @oneironott@vulpine.club
boosted
weed, subculture
If I ever see "kelp" listed on one of those DEA lists of slang terms for drugs I'm gonna lose my shit.
It’s a lovely day to eat your friends
Just… cry myself to sleep
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
