-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
nsfw transition humor
Me then: I'm totally okay with my parts even though I never use or think about them and prefer then not to be used mmhmmmmm
Me now: I want surgery and when I get it I'm going to get a harness with the thickest knotted dick and
Swelling animal people tbh
positive side, dissociation
On the plus side, I am very present today and it is working out really well.
work vent, anxiety & dissociation
Which is only a comment on my distance from myself fwiw
work vent, anxiety & dissociation
… it definitely is to some degree. It also has been keeping me from using healthy methods of grounding and anxiety reduction, as when stress hits, I just end up spacing.
It feels like "objective third person", when a heavier episode would be "omniscient third person" for lack of better metaphor
work vent, anxiety & dissociation
I realized yesterday, with great help from my toyfriend, that I have a very lesser intensity of dissociation that I tends to come out with regular day to day anxiety.
I have a tendency to be "spacey" and not all there. I run conversation on autopilot and when something pops up I'm not expecting I flounder, often being unable to parse or respond.
I've never before now associated it with dissociation, but…
work vent, transphobia
I am starting to notice angry or irritated folks purposefully doing very passive-aggressive microaggression-y shit regarding my gender when they are angry and I've started to realize that it doesn't bother me as much, at least today.
Other days it does.
birds site copies, musing
A place with little need for things like wide streets for cars. Close, communal.
Whimsy, magic, adventure, relative peace. A place and time of which technology and society gives you the security you had as a child.
Where you see magic in everything and there is no constant fear of failure so deep it kills.
Hunger will not kill you.
Nor thirst
Nor likely illness. There is your life and adventure
Perhaps how it should be
birds site copies, musing
Magic in the extra bit of taste in the coffee at the café that rests in one of the busiest streets
Magic in the wind farms and solar panels gleaming in the light. The technology that rests along side the earth in harmony
Magic in the serenity and peace, held and strengthened with wisdom.
A place born part from my wonder and extrapolation into society moving back in structure as technology moves forward.
birds site copies, musing
There is a happy village. Full of close houses, windmills, greenery, and much bustle under the afternoon sun
Part of it rests in the shadow of a large arch of land. Part of it lay on [it].
Part of it floats in the sky on chunks of land above the ocean it rests on. Which is the most noticeable hint of magic
Magic flows through as smoothly as a soft melody in the afternoon's light. Not something so pronounced as Terran stories
mental health
Things are easier this way. Dissociating feels better than the anxiety by far
mental health
Mostly with yesterday and today being a 100% scramble, we are left pushing ourselves into a dissociative state because we have no other way of relaxing, and our mind has gone straight down into a pit. Can't afford to be present right now.
I don't mind this.
mental health
An immensely stressful day wound up with us dissociating half the day, and still currently so.
Wound up bouncing from place to place because I was scheduled wrong. Mostly consisted of people being angry at me for something I have no control over, relying on me, or mocking my gender identity when they think I'm not listening. some went bad. Others went well.
swim wih sh arpks
rl lewd, libido. Yeah I know, still
we are liminal beauty
magic and perception
beyond the knowing of most.
this form and its' past.
it's circumstances
Better and worse
It is no matter
because we know
it is not where we've been
but where we are going
so come to bed
and let there be
no expectation
no simplification
no shroud or miscommunication
Shed it all to the flow
of our cosmic being
let me lean to you
To whisper
"You are beautiful"
Let there be no doubt
Of which whom I speak
rl lewd, libido. Yeah I know, still
This cycle is short my dears, and we are a wondrous kith.
We walk this earth as much as we need to
Where we walk, we do so together
paws, talons, hooves and chassis stomping earth, dancing to a pounding rhythm of being
Growls in ears and hazy eyes met and seamless transfer of desire.
primal, simple, yet deep.
I see you
and you see me
and I want to make you feel good
I want to please you
your soul is brilliance to mine
so let us press together and shine
eclipse
I managed to see what i could and do my ritual. Despite being rushed and not planning at all.
I don't think I've ever seen myself this vividly, and I feel like I'm just flowing.
I wish I want so rushed, honestly
Grounding works so well, JFC.
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
