species/kinstuff
Sometimes I become very aware that I have little frame of reference for what it would be like to be Whole. Right. Correct.
I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like to come to and to look down and to just...
see... all of it.
Feel all of it.
experience and think and live... all of it.
kinks, violence/[pseudo]death, posthuman
Tease my plush body and pluck stitch by stitch… or get the seam ripper and teasingly trail it along my body before bringing to its’ inevitable conclusion.
Macro crush fantasies experienced over and over
Gradual tightening inflation and immense BURSTing, such sweet release~
The possibilities, not just in scenario but experience … who says it needs to be painful? Turn up the pleasure and i’ll beeeeg for it >.>
kinks, violence/[pseudo]death, posthuman
My mind has milling around posthuman violence/‘violence’ and death with regards to having backups, being non-organic, and generally being able to modify the “experience”
I’ve had a side that was kinda low-key into snuff and gore but the nonpermanence of it in a posthuman setting seems to solve a lot of the issues i had, mentally.
weirdwoo(?), epilepsy warning, harsh noise, static
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iu8tspoGuWw FUCKIN THIS THOUGH HNFFFFGGGGGG
music, Vloelei-indulging-in-fantasy
sweet bass and distortion just like reality wobbling at the seams~ mmmphhh sweet, sweet let's unraaavel them one by one stitch by stitch
music, vent (world)
This is my like... monstrous rage-at-world theme song right now
(EmptySet - Dissolve ) [Noise,Bass] https://emptyset1.bandcamp.com/track/dissolve
brief abuse mention
Seriously, "abused and neglected for being themselves, a water spirit helps get them through and leads them through their own turmoil to a point where they find a community of nonhuman folks like them"
culture
It hasn't gotten to that point where it's a normalized thing within me, or... rather to say that I continue to realize and value in AWE that I am engaged in and a part of one of, if not the only cultures that -does- stuff like this. I'm infatuated with it and I feel, at this point like I'm still running around to everyone whose been in this for so long going "HOLY SHIT DO YOU REALIZE HOW AMAZING WE ARE"
culture
I like that whether it's plurality, nonhuman, gender, orientation... I value being able to say something that would be so, SO radical and wild to most folks on this planet, but in these spaces I'm just.. valid. No proving anything, no worrying about boundaries.
"I'm a Synthetic Neptunian toy otter, Pansexual and ve/ver or they/them pronouns"
"Oh, awesome cool"
It's so beautiful like...every time haha
plurality, dissociation
whether or not folks saw it, we had a pretty equal input/fronting today between the three of us who care to do so these days.
Also talking about dissociation with folks is immensely useful, and I value being able to talk about a lot of these topics without having to come even close to defending myself or feeling weird or wondering if folks think I'm valid/legit or wild and out there
SNUGGIN THE HECKIE OUT OF @KawaSeadrake
Kinstuff, Skin Deep (comic)
Stumbled onto a Discord for the comic Skin Deep and started going into a bit of vaguities regarding how the comic helped me and sorta left it at that >.>
Because how am I going to say "Yeah, this comic really helped me get through the inner turmoil of suddenly realizing that I'm not human and What That Means"
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing