Toy Feelings
I wish i was owned. My anxiety.. all this worry… fear… gods, take it away.
Give me a simple mind
And simple orders.
Let me obey and do.
No need to think <only obey>
No need to worry <only obey>
Of course…
This is the first time i’ve really wished for those feelings since [Incident].
I don’t think that i ever could… allow myself to be that vulnerable again
I’m emotionally compromised in about every way right now and i would love nothing more to blank out and Toy
(latenight musings, if) reflections, woo, Beltane
*looks back on past few hours, raises glass* yeah, something like that, my beautiful animals *grins*
latenight musings, if
Gods imagine the celebration we would have if it broke and we could just physically be free. Be us. I like to imagine it. How that would feel. The tears and the joy. Oh the celebration and the music.
But i suppose we already do that, to some extent :) thats what i love.
We don’t wait for reality to celebrate everything that we are. We already are, and we see each other. We celebrate as the seasons change and we celebrate our own brilliance we know to be true
latenight musings, if
I hope you realize that if reality broke tomorrow i’d transform the hell out of a lot of you and celebrate in such ridiculously debaucherous ways.
I would make you everything you have always dreamed you could be if i could
I would give you the resources and time to heal. To do it all yourself. Remake yourself. I would give you all safety and security you deserve.
ollie posted art again and excuse me while my gay otter ass screams into oblivion and i reflect on my younger fandom self’s attraction to that aesthetic and world, and where i’m at now and go “oh”
furaffinity.net/view/27177479/
https://d.facdn.net/art/ollie/1525037726/1525037726.ollie_sharkhood-m.png
… LOOKATTHOSE cute gay webs
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing