-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space

Living that gay-ass trans capitalist dystopian life

Halcyon 2: Electric Boogaloo #nocontexttheatre

I have a fat sensitive bodypillow tail

Time to smoke the lurking horror in my mind away

“I’m not a TOY for you to PLAY with… except yeah I’m literally that” #nocontexttheatre

Disclaimer: I'm not used to talking about Autism, let alone about my having it. If I ever say something Awkward or not good or anything, please let me know and I will remedy it <3

Gods, is feeling like you're an alien a very autistic experience, I wonder?

Sometimes I Just Can't

This is just -one- of many many feelings I'm re-evaluating and kinda realizing "oh, yeah, I'm probably quite autistic"
a Whole Host of feelings I used to mentally put under "I'm neurodiverse/neurodivergent" that couldn't really be explained by my depression, ADD, etc
There has been a LOT LOT LOT to unpack.

Again I'm not like... I understand that People Don't Get It, but it filters into my life-long feeling of "What the hell I don't feel human" growing up. I don't understand HOW people don't get it. my brain can't comprehend not having that innate "Oh yeah everyone's different"
I definitely am GOOD with people but these things just absolutely baffle me and confuse and frustrate me... as someone trying to reach and grasp at the very concept of Not Getting It

"I don't know why this hurts you"
because I'm... not... you? because... there's a lot of.. factors and possibilities that develop as a person grows up? do you not know this?? I don't understand.
I exist in the same way you exist right.
so like
you have a lot of experiences and factors that lead you to think the way you do right
where in this do you fault out and think that others aren't the same. This worries me

I don't know how to tell someone that their life experiences aren't others and that you can't apply yours to other peoples.
I'm exhausted by it and my brain just literally errors at folks not understanding it.
this isn't a dig on folks who don't understand a thing I Just Can't

*happysqueaks*

My executive function vs my executive function when mx tells me to do something