@Roady_Dragonfae @Oneironott Y E S

Ugh yes

I tried to explain this to my partner once as being sort of like how spice trance works in the Dune novels, except I do it all the time and nobody else sees the larger pattern or path I do so they can't understand what my choices are steering toward. But I can't move at all WITHOUT that larger view. It's all or nothing.

Nobody told me, "Consider maybe it's autism: hypervigilant trauma type." 😬

@Cobalt @Roady_Dragonfae jhdjghsja,clskfg fuck

@Oneironott @Roady_Dragonfae I spent years hanging online with #ActuallyAutistic ppl and thinking, "idk what people's problem is. These folks are great friends and they don't question the weird things I need because for SURELY UNRELATED REASONS they have their own and so we just accept our biz. And nobody thinks I'm a bitch, or if they do they are glad for clarity that if I have Bad Feeling it'll be obvious. So nice to be the token allistic!"

lmao No

@Cobalt @Oneironott Exactly. What's worse is when they try slapping you with prejudices, infantilize you, and turn your quirks into insecurities.

It's as if they can only perceive a disability if it's physical. The whole "I can't see it so it must he made up" schtik that's so typical of a two-dimensional being.

@Cobalt @Oneironott Honestly. I try my damndest to avoid calling it a disability. Seeing things nobody else can see, being in tune with the universe on a transcendental level, is a gift. But society frames it as something bad.

@Roady_Dragonfae @Oneironott Heh, that's a fascinating metaphor. :-)

@Roady_Dragonfae @Oneironott Er, analogy. Whatever. :-)