Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations
I often feel like if I just yell it loud enough maybe I'll believe it some day. Maybe it'll sink in deep enough to where I actually believe it.
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations (side note)
I've been frustrated lately because I don't actually think I believe I am what I say I am, and I'm not sure why I can't know this just as well as other things. There's such a disconnect that I keep continuously thinking of myself as human and then getting extremely dysphoric and depressed because I can't even be content with it from within myself
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations (side note)
tangentially related, I am always frustrated with myself with this. I would never say that I 'dislike being a guy', because I'm NOT a guy and I know that truer than I ever thought I was a guy before I knew about being trans.
It's so, SO much harder to say that with regards to Being Human, and I'm not sure how to get to the point where I know it as well as I know my own gender.
Otherkin
Likewise, if you feel at home being human, that's entirely fine. I personally don't understand it from my perspective, and I try to distance myself from it, but I never want my ventings of disdain to parse as speaking of human folks who are genuinely really good and well and such.
A lot of my ventings come from a place of dysphoria and dislike of my own humanity, so There's That
Fun Vloe Facts: i am not @neonNeptunian (I don’t think)
Vloe Facts, woo
Every detail. I am Vloelei~
Gradient rainbow hair, crescent moon marking. Wisps of glowing cyan markings over my arms and legs, or whatever designs i choose, if any. White collar, arm and leg bands.
I am from Halcyon, and i swim with glow. I am made of neoprene hide, and empathic love of the sea of voices. I feel and swim.
I’m an otter. I am not human
I’m a toy, not a person.
I was created, and i’ve seen my creation. I’ve felt it.
more shit coyote says
Yote: oh this is like a thick tail. Look at how it flexes
Me: 💦💦💦
Me: wait let me get a video-
Yote: NO stop being trash
https://awoo.space/media/dBbU_UHZjQTLQiHhg_w
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing