Otherkin
Likewise, if you feel at home being human, that's entirely fine. I personally don't understand it from my perspective, and I try to distance myself from it, but I never want my ventings of disdain to parse as speaking of human folks who are genuinely really good and well and such.
A lot of my ventings come from a place of dysphoria and dislike of my own humanity, so There's That
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations (side note)
tangentially related, I am always frustrated with myself with this. I would never say that I 'dislike being a guy', because I'm NOT a guy and I know that truer than I ever thought I was a guy before I knew about being trans.
It's so, SO much harder to say that with regards to Being Human, and I'm not sure how to get to the point where I know it as well as I know my own gender.
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations (side note)
I've been frustrated lately because I don't actually think I believe I am what I say I am, and I'm not sure why I can't know this just as well as other things. There's such a disconnect that I keep continuously thinking of myself as human and then getting extremely dysphoric and depressed because I can't even be content with it from within myself
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations
@Oneironott I'm passing this on in hope that it helps. But finding traces of my true form hiding on my human skinsuit is a memento of who I truly am. Best example I can think of is the scales made of freckles in my arm. It's those attributes in your human form you don't normally pay attention to. But once you discover it, it's always there. I wish you the best in your path. *hugs*
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations
@Roady_Dragonfae mmmm... this is a really good idea, actually
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations (side note)
@Oneironott Y'know... if it's not fact, it's still a useful metaphor. It still helps you cope. And fact or metaphor, people do change and occasionally need to rearrange whatever works for them. The "works for you/helps you cope" is the part that I think is most important.
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations (side note)
@Leucrotta it doesn’t really work for me though… i want to be able to say it and believe it. None of this stuff I’d be saying such… circumventing terminology about my gender, so why… this
Otherkin, self-understanding, frustrations
I often feel like if I just yell it loud enough maybe I'll believe it some day. Maybe it'll sink in deep enough to where I actually believe it.