MH-PTSD
What arrests my attention is that I can't distinguish between someone who's offering honest advice and someone who is being manipulative or predatory.
The line is so blurred that I go into survival mode and lash out. Because said emotional abuse and gaslighting I've been subjected to was so subtle in intent that my first thought is the possibility that someone is trying to control me when they're really just concerned or offering help.
MH-PTSD
This mainly stems from how those who have abused me were either plastic shamans or tried to come off as armchair therapists who exploited me by claiming to know me more than I know myself.
Given my naive nature/alcoholism at these times, I found myself in horrible situations where I was either brainwashed or drugged. Certain personalities still trigger episodes where I'm unable to distinguish whether or not someone is actually trying to help me...
Good god... I can't stop crying.