Manicure
First time in over a year since I painted my nails. Deep shades of green will always be my favorite! https://awoo.space/media/fsRerXKKkt-rdKIkLQc
The solstice begins
The winter's sins
Our sun will hardly climb
When night seems long
And the moonlight song
Goes far past it's time
Its nights like these
Despite our pleas
That darkness seems to cling
But the moonlight pale
Will part the veil
So with the moon we sing
The moonlight song
Where all belong
Within its verse and rhyme
Not dark nor bright
The pale moon's light
Paints us all sublime
Drugs
Whenever I trip with other people, it seems as if I'm always tugged along on someone else's ride. I'm influenced, overwhelmed, and overstimulated by the thoughts and emotions of those around me. It doesn't help that I'm already nervous on the come up, and this is why I prefer tripping alone.
However, I think I may have cracked the barrier I have with social tripping. And that lies in my current routine of taking at least a gram of CBD every day.
Anime I should go back and watch
While my full-blown interest in anime waned a long time ago, I will always have a soft spot for Paranoia Agent, Paprika, and Serial Experiments Lain. As well as the space western trifecta of Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, and Outlaw Star.
And I can't forget Kaiba. My favorite show that never made it across the Pacific. A dark and twisted romance story/social statement with the saccharin aesthetic of Osamu Tezuka.
Introspection
Somewhere, before I was born, I chose this body for a reason. That I know. It had to have a purpose, and it's a race against the short time I have to figure out why. I chose my parents for a reason, I was put in these circumstances for a reason.
Maybe it was out of curiosity? I wanted to see what being human was like and realized it was a truly fucked up situation I got myself into? Or is it something more? Either way, I feel like I'm well on the right path to figuring out why.
Gross violation of cross-dimensional physics
Augh! Oh my god! What the he'll have I??? Clearly I need to rework my ability to summon fourth dimensional objects to this plane. I barely shred our very universe to bring this thing together! https://awoo.space/media/DnRieNFl1TaUe4EBNCk
Goofy doofy crossed eyes
When blowing balloons to make winter solstice lanterns, watch out for getting too winded!
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Gender
There are several times where I've questioned my gender. Or even would consider myself gender fluid or nonbinary. I acknowledge that I have a female side to me. But I choose to remain a cisgender male because I want to serve as a positive role model for the other men out there that are struggling against the toxic expectations and conformist pressures that society has on them.
I honestly can't say it enough times. I owe my life to the postfurry community and those who were willing to lend an ear to the hardships I faced. My life has turned back around and I fully rediscovered myself in the process.
I have a long and hard story to tell. But I'm always willing to share it to those who are interested in knowing why I'm here, and why I wish to be such a loyal and loving friend.
What is postfurry? At the very core, it's a way of approaching what identity means.
Furry has been all about answering the question "what if people can also be animals?"
Postfurry says "okay, we can go even further than that. What if we claim authorial control over every aspect of identity? We're animal-people sure, but that's only a starting point. If the poststructuralists are right and all meaning is negotiable, let's go exploring and write some meanings of our own."
Parental Gratitude
20 years ago, my mother divorced my father. My formative years were raised in a matriarchy. My younger sister and my single mother were the only other family in the house.
After it was discovered that I was on the spectrum, my mother faught and advocated for me all the way until I graduated high school.
I'll never take for granted her abundant compassion, love, and patience. With those virtues, I want to give back to the world in the fullest way possible.
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