Vera "Not A Werewolf" Lycaon @Thaminga@awoo.space

HONK

nothing to wake you up from a series of not-totally-willing naps like dreaming that you're horrifyingly (but strangely enjoyably, at that) transforming into your lupine self

dreamlog incoming, I suppose: so, things started out by me waking up at my desk immediately wondering what the time was because it felt like I'd just slept through the entire night - sky was way, way brighter than it was when I'd fallen asleep, though somehow the stars were still visible. check the time, it's... 1 AM??? there was no sun to be seen anywhere, but it felt like a really overcast morning or during a solar eclipse not too long before totality and all - clearly day, but way darker than you'd expect

so I go about doing some of my usual stuff and the first thing I feel is this sensation of some part of me *aching* to come out and I couldn't put my finger on what, I end up running to the bathroom to drink some water from the tap, look outside for a brief moment and look back in the mirror

big ol' feral looking, glowing pair of eyes staring back at me. almost immediately after fur started growing in basically everywhere, thin across my face at first (plenty of fluff along the jawline though) and I could -feel- and hear my bones warping when my muzzle started growing in and my teeth began taking up a lot more space within it, ears growing pointier and slowly moving up all the while

almost matched the avatar in looks before I finally woke up just checking myself out and touching myself all the way through, the whole thing was -so- goddamn vivid and I'm still kinda reeling from it, ahaha 💙

capturing that new year's day mood

rough sketch for shits 'n giggles to start off the year, messing with the more humanoid end of Vera's sliding scale o' forms I guess~

CST folks be like we we we we (weeeeeeee) aaaaare in ＦＥＥＥＥＥＡＡＡＡＡＡＡＲＲＲＲ

we ain't got flying cars yet but I sure as fuck feel like I'm flying right now let me fucking tell you

Happy New Year from Holland~ 💙

I've already launched off into a short thread on this over on birdhell, but yeah.

The 2010s have been... one hell of a time for me. Started them out by becoming an adult on paper, and... honestly I dare say the vast majority of my development as a person happened after that point. It's an understatement to say I've basically spent this entire decade picking up pieces of myself that I'd lost over the course of my life before that - from figuring out my sexuality at the very beginning of the decade, to coming to terms with the fact I'm trans, to the nearly decade long DID break that followed after that... only to finally come together as a person again and pick up a very lycanthropy-shaped last piece of myself last summer, that I'd thought had just been a temporary thing that had vanished after I turned 19 or so only to smack me *right* in the face with itself.

Planning to finally just come out with all that over on Twitter too because I'm sick of hiding things about myself, but suffice to say, that whole thing had been bubbling underneath the surface for years upon years.

As for everything else... well. Graduated high school, crashed out of college and had to come to terms with the fact I'm simply not at all fit to work in a capitalist environment, went way off the beaten path, got a whole *bunch* of other shit flung at me and... honestly, while it sucked in the moment I'm kind of glad it happened, overall? I've grown tremendously as a person since.

Speaking of personal growth, meeting all of you lovely people, both here in the Fediverse and elsewhere in my life helped tremendously with that, and I can't state often enough that I couldn't have gotten to where I am without y'all. 💙 I'll forever be thankful for that, and as rocky as this decade's been for probably all of us, let's make sure the next one's better.

To 2020.

sudden realization: today is the one day in the entire decade you can tell from the first digit of someone's age alone what decade they were born in

I mean unless they're over a hundred years old I guess

There's like several things wrong with this but I liked it too much not to post so hey~

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bank sent me a new debit card today because my old one was well, old I guess

would've been great if not for the fact I took the first steps towards changing my name and gender marker like a week ago lmao

happy nation by ace of base but it's in major key

merry shitscram y'all