Abe E Seedy @abe_e_seedy@awoo.space

FYI, ditching this account! This particular mastodon instance does not let me follow like, anyone, so if you *are* following me here, find me over at https://transfur.social/@abe_e_seedy instead.

petition to rename the "fight or flight" response in a work setting to "complain or cry"

Definitely had at least one call with coworkers that I normally shepherd carefully through things where I legitimately heard about 20% of what they were saying, and just responded to everything with "oh, yep, that seems good! I think you've got it figured out, so, yeah, just go with that!"

Spent a lot of this week under a sudden stress due to a big government bureaucracy thing that basically made me worried I was going to inevitably get in a lot of trouble.

I'm confident I've figured out a solid path forward now which is helping me slowly chill out, but boy, it sure was hard to concentrate on like, work and such when a big part of my brain was just dedicated to screaming at me on an unending loop

I have this problem with Halloween-type fancy dress to be honest, in that I'm intensely uncomfortable wearing anything that stands out. That's probably something I should work through at some point, but someone else's wedding probably isn't a great time to do that

Been getting more and more anxious about an upcoming wedding recently, and only now checked the invite and saw that wearing drag is optional, not mandatory. In fact, they specifically say "show up however you feel comfortable".
I'm not going to wear jeans and a t-shirt or anything, but I'm glad I can aim for my normal nondescript fancy without it being a problem.

@abe_e_seedy I don't think there's a good answer here. I tried to act like a human and not a business entity, but at the same time I didn't want her to feel like I was being overly familiar, or that she needed to walk me through it all in depth.
idk. my solution to management problems is basically always to say "fuck the company line, value the person", but this is just a hard situation to handle in general. Actually seeing her again kinda bought that home

@abe_e_seedy I repeated that work isn't what's important here, but I understood that she might just want stuff to do, so I was happy to give her low-pressure, useful tasks. She didn't volunteer much - one of the most notable changes from her past self - but she did mention that her family thought it was too soon for her to start back at work, but she'd been finding not having anything to do harder on her mental health.

@abe_e_seedy she'd already booked about 2 months off due to the operation (which didn't happen), so we expected her back end of July at the earliest. I found out last week though she wanted to come back July 1st, and like I said, I had my first call with her today.

It was hard. There was clearly just a lot of her missing, and she was trying to find stuff to do to fill the day. I spoke a lot, trying to find a way to say "this sucks, I'm sorry" acceptably

@abe_e_seedy this is a big reason why I kinda disappeared from Twitter (and here) for several months, because I couldn't really figure out how to phrase "work is weird because a coworker I talk to daily just had her husband die". Then I wound up hurriedly needing to move, then having Lindsey visit, so I was just busy or distracted for some time.

The husband worked for our company too, which added a twist. I didn't know him personally though

Had the first call today with someone I directly manage in India since she started back at work last week. She'd been going through a long period of difficulty, trying to get successful treatment for her husband's long term illness. Eventually she'd been booked to donate part of her liver, and right when they were in hospital waiting to be prepped, covid swept through. They both got it, she recovered, he didn't.

Turns out if you unironically retweet El*n M*sk and boost a cryptocurrency in a single tweet, that's an instant unfollow from me

Honestly the fact that I've never heard of Doja Cat before and she
a) has album art like that
b) raps about having a ton of good sex
c) had a viral video in *2018* where she dressed up in a cow outfit and sung "I'm a cow, I'm a cow, moo I'm a cow"

Has made me feel older and more out of touch than I have in *some time*

I was playing my familiar playlist on Spotify and then suddenly something made me check out the Hot 50 UK playlist. I couldn't possibly say what it was

Hey, figure I should put this here too, but I'm just about to start streaming the new update for Stellaris, if anyone is interested. Should be a very chill hang - I know the game well and I'm going to be talking through it, but I can't imagine there'll be any more than 10 people watching (and quite likely about 2-3), so it should just be a chill hang if anyone fancies coming and checking it out. Over on Twitch here:

https://www.twitch.tv/ambiguouspseudonym/

I should actually check in here at all I realise - at the airport now, just about to board the first leg of my long flight back to NZ for belated Christmas vacation. Gonna meet up with Ang on the way, and I am extremely hype for the whole thing

Perhaps the best summation of my working relationship with Angrboda is that when I sat down to write a snake story, I searched my prospective title on FA first, to make sure I wasn't stepping on any toes.

I found one result, written and posted four years ago, which credited the title of the story, "A Farewell To Legs", directly to Angrboda.

We are, as ever, a horny ouroboros

Released a porn (full promo on birdsite), now for celebratory Fire Emblem:
https://abe-e-seedy.itch.io/celestial-bodies

I just got the proofs of the latest book back from Ang and it is *extremely* rad looking. Hoping to launch by the end of the week!

Gonna put this here while I figure out how to tweet this, but Ang surprised me today by finishing the very rad reference sheet she was working on for my character