angrboda @angrboda@awoo.space

@fineursine trigun, damn what a blast from the past

Ugh I ate two muffins and I knew it was a bad idea but I did it anyway

@SeadogDriftwood he mentioned it to me briefly, but I can't really commit to anything because our group is bigger than just us and how much bigger isn't something I'm sure of yet. If we can't make it I'm sure there will be plenty more opportunities to hang out!

@smallesttiger @literorrery the thing that I had to make peace with is the idea that they wouldn't want to be hurting you and the only way for them to move forward w/o continuing to do that involves any or all of getting a better handle on stuff / a better action plan for their depression / a more diversified support network.

Like, the fact that they naturally beat themselves up doesn't exempt them from the fact that what they're doing does actively suck, even if they don't realize it.

Banana bread breakfast for the week

@smallesttiger ugh, if only

@smallesttiger I know it's a cliche but if you ever want to talk about it with someone who's been there, let me know.

@smallesttiger @literorrery when someone close to you sees any withdrawal or flagging of support as validation for their own self hatred and refuses to believe you when you say otherwise, is the point that I decided was the threshold between being emotional support and being held hostage.

What to do when you hit that point is like... legitimately a really tough question. It's probably the hardest thing I've ever had to navigate.

@smallesttiger I feel this incredibly hard. There's not a lot of stuff that acknowledges the very real cost of being a very heavy emotional / social / practical support for folks in your life who are struggling, which I think makes it easy to feel like it's expected of you in every circumstance and if you can't always do it, you're somehow bad

@tfproxy America is shitty but it's beyond disingenuous to pretend it's shitty in a vacuum. I see MAGA shitheads with Oshawa or Wellington or Brisbane or fucking Limerick listed as their locations constantly; posting in threads about American immigration, even. Ugh.

@tfproxy I think the takes that makes me the tiredest are ones that just boil down to like 'America is big and that makes me mad!'

Like, yeah, we're big and we make a lot of stuff, and we're kind of a cultural black hole because we constitute a lot of the English speaking internet. But we also didn't invent like, tabloids or Fox News or false equivalency, IDK

@tfproxy read some rough takes on Twitter that kind of exacerbated my general fatigue about everyone having to have comments / takes / dunk opportunities on Americans. We get it. We suck. A lot of us are trying hard to stop sucking, IDK what to tell you.

Trying this out for the rest of the week: wegmans salads for lunch w/ grapes and cheese in a snack thing in case I get super hungry outside of lunchtime

@angrboda the really stupid thing is that FE is almost always really close to FWA which is a con I really liked when we got to attend it. I defaulted to FE instead because it's closer (even tho it's in a different country) and a bunch of friends go / Abe usually wants to go. Maybe long term we switch back to FWA, idk. The weather is certainly nicer.

Suddenly looking forward to going to a Canadian furry convention a lot less. Whugh.

Social media is garbage tonight so rather than being put to sleep by godawful takes I'm going to color a thing until I'm tired enough to sleep.

At least I made time to go to the store and get healthy meals & snacks sorted out for the rest of the week so I won't have another day where I so spectacularly fail to take care of myself.

Update: today's breakfast was peanut butter out of the jar

I was wandering back through old shit and here's a prompt Abe wrote me in early Feb. 2013:

"A girl signs up eagerly to be TFed into a sexy kittygirl pet, with very d/s overtones as her TF develops physically and mentally to the point of essentially worship (although it's all voluntary, of course). Oh, and with sexy consequences."

Then he (no joke) complained a little that he didn't feel like he knew exactly what I was into, haha

I finished Abe's valentine's porn
https://awoo.space/media/h0vjJkK0hyu6J7ZXM3s