‏haunting‏ liminality ‮ ✅‭ @bleak@awoo.space

@noiob words of deep regret

edited the mastodon variable width stylish slightly for a slightly narrower drawer:

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@girlfiend crying boy on a red flag.jpg

@girlfiend @morganastra@witches.town can i pretend to be a boy and cry i love crying and i'm given to understand i make a very convincing one

update to both these toots: connection refused due to insecure http requests, fixed the protocol mismatch by hand, everything works fine now

edit: it is NOT the case for slime.global that instance is refusing my connection any which way which possibly is as intended

weird, toot.cat refuses my connection on desktop but i can use it on mobile just fine

@thethinktanker https://patreon.com/bleak

@thethinktanker whatever you do, don't let the hour of time, effort, and information i gave you this morning gather dust. complacency and apathy are the firmament on which harmful environments are built.

@thethinktanker the best thing you can do from the standpoint of community educational resources probably is find people who have information that helps you, spread it around, and take an active role in making sure those people are in a position to continue speaking in ways that help. that's all i have to say on the subject for now i think

@thethinktanker at the same time i realize it's very difficult for people on the other side of the schism to educate themselves. there's no searchable repository for this info and it DOES require a lot of introspection, which is why i'm willing to eat a lot of shit for the time being. but i don't know how much longer i can keep this up, it's really really unsustainable fo rme.

@thethinktanker i always always always hear "i'm willing to help" but after delivering my thoughts anew i might get something in my tip jar if i'm lucky, and that's it. me getting paid is nice, and necessary, but i'm not doing this to get paid, i'm trying to make a welcoming space. it's hard or impossible do that when all i get from talking to eugen is "they failed to approach me diplomatically"? he's the administrator, he should act like it.

@thethinktanker these kinds of conversations are really tiring because i've been saying the same thing for months across various platforms and it feels like no one that needs to hear it does. the only ones who boost my writings are the ones who stand to benefit directly from having them heard, even though we ALL benefit indirectly.

@thethinktanker that's the trcky part. asking these questions is a good start but in all honesty this (read: drawing attention to heretofore disregarded community concerns and doing open Q&A sessions to address them) is community work that i should be getting paid for. i and many others (trans, poc, disabled, poor, any permutation of these) face struggles that are more immediate but no less threatening, which is why the onus can't always fall on those who are aware to do that work freely.

@thethinktanker basically what i'm saying is this place exists in a culture of white supremacy whether gargron likes or knows it or not and he is in a position to push back against it and instead he's been (accidentally? intentions are irrelevant here though tbh) leaning into it so far. i got sick thinking about it which is why i made the original toot in the first place

@thethinktanker there needs to be all parts of the process involved in standing up for people that come from different positions and experiences (observation, willingness, ability, action, follow-through) and there needs to be room for those people to exist in this space. this hasn't really been provided yet for many subsets of people, and the influx of new users in turn made that harder to establish.

@thethinktanker of course, not to offload responsibility for being culturally welcoming all on that guy. but it's his system, with his name, using his code, and making him money. so it STARTS with him. but there is a responsibility the rest of us share as well

@thethinktanker probably. a big pain point a couple months back was voz coming in here and having valid criticisms but she ended up getting banned, and my sibling who also had valid criticisms got blocked by eugen, who blocked them for not being 'diplomatic'. it's not for critique to be diplomatic. it all starts with him imo