bunnyhero🐰 @bunnyhero@awoo.space

no matter how little sleep i've had the night before, i still end up awake till 3am :/

i find air travel stressful. not the flying itself-- i have no problem being in planes. but the $$, deciding schedules so far in advance, etc, etc :/

ugh i'm sitting next to mr hammer-as-hard-as-possible-on-the-enter-key again

decided to take another route to the office that lets me avoid walking toward these mirrored pillars that i always look terrible in

i kind of want to make an account on mastodon.art but i'm already on too many instances??

i should probably consolidate to just, like, one or 2 :/

awoo!

i feel like i must look weirder than usual tonight? i was getting odd looks? i get paranoid

and someone i know was here! it was great to see her! but she left. shoulda got here earlier oh well

ok i went out anyway. probably won't stay long. i did dance some but i'm not sure if the DJ is going to play any more music i like. she usually plays that stuff earlier in the night & i got here late

i was going to go dancing tonight but it's rainy out and i'm tired.... i totally would go if anyone i knew were going but i don't think anyone is :(

i wish my hair would bleach/dye itself

feeling a bit better? hung out with some friends. not very close friends but people i feel comfortable with anyway. i think it helps that this crowd is a little older than a lot of the people i usually hang out with. less posturing or something? anyway it was a nice chill night

argh suddenly hit by extreme loneliness and feelings of worthlessness 😭

dunno how to dig myself out of this hole

i idled away a couple of hours doing nothing :(

sometimes i try to make an effort to be social with new people but i end up feeling bad about myself so i just immerse myself in code or whatever for a long time

i used to be better at this but i think my social skills have deteriorated. bleh

sleepy

i have too many accounts on too many instances >_>;;